ugh sorry guys i havent been updating this journal :( ive been super duper busy with work and all and so i've been eating like tons and tons!!! :( i'm annoyed with myself because i gained back every single fucking pound i lost last year. shit................... bye!

today's intake.
breakfast - 2 sausages, milo (250cals)
dinner (yeah i just took it, 5.15pm, to do the eat-before-6pm thing) - chicken rice (400cals)

i'm downing loads of green tea later!!! cleanse the oil from the chicken rice.

tomorrow i will try the same, only breakfast and dinner, good luck to me.

to eat whatever i'm given is STUPID.
i need a new plan. new plan. new plan.

monday - only breakfast
tuesday - only breakfast
wednesday - only breakfast
thursday - only breakfast and dinner
friday - only breakfast

AH SHIT I NEED THIS!!!!!!!!! my arms have doubled its size omgomgomgomgomgzzz :(

what i ate today
b-i cant remember but i did eat
l-rice/dishes
d-rice/dishes, ice cream
s-char siew pao, loads of sweets

fatttttttt!! :(

monday - eat whatever breakfast i'm given, eat whatever dinner i'm given ( Read more... )

shit i gained 2 kg just from school. and of course the canteen food which was so irresistable when eating with the people i'm happy with.

first day of school. not too bad i guess. 1.5 meals. abit of rice and laksa for dinner. but laksa................. zomg. how many cals are there in laksa. :(

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! christmas. foooooooooooodddd!!!!!!! oh no. there goes 2 months' worth of work. damnit.

sorry body. sorry self esteem. sorry me!! omgomgomgomgomg! >:(

have been eating so so so so much recently like >1 meal a day. gained like 1.5kg this is hell! :( how am i going to lose all the fats around my body. food is so tempting. sometimes i wish i could just give up and then try to stay happy. but no. seeing fat people makes me so disgusted i don't wanna be like them.

i wanna be thin. i wanna be pretty. i wanna be loved. i wanna have friends. real friends. people who would talk to me and not be two-sided ( Read more... )