*sigh* mabye grams is right she always says that if i NEED to be with my friends all the time then theres somethin wrong.....it takes almost nothing to make me feel wierd....empty or craving...its always like that...i do always feel like i need it...but should that be a bad thing...im not doing something illegal or self damaging....then why DO i ( Read more... )

GOD I LOVE THAT FUCKER!! lol yeah i insult him and make fun of him...but its so damn fun and i love it when he does it back...yeah my mind is messed up..mabye i should be more blunt with him actually say i love u when he insults me...it pisses me off when he says he's alone and im right here feeling the same.....i mean cumon dude am i really that ( Read more... )

 it hurts.....i can't even talk to him...i feel so exausted and i don't help by being a bitch to him but i can't help it..DAMMIT SOMEONE HIT ME!!! FOR REAL!!! this isn't right i shouldn't be so absessed!!! I SHOULDN'T!!! it's a fuckin weakness HE'S a weakness...i hate reality...i feel like crying.. DAMMIT!!!!  when i talk to him im so happy but ( Read more... )

ok i think iv toned down with Lloyd for a bit....i think...today was less exausting i didn't really haft to babysit cuz dave got home early...its so relaxing here...^.^ i think ill take Debbie up on her offer..see last night we talked about collage and she offered me to live here and go to collage up here...well i already dicided before that i was ( Read more... )

*falls over* wll today was exausting for a vacation...right now im at my bros and sis's (Debbie's) lon story but they're gunna get adopted by the family in June...^.^ very good very VERY good...antway i had to babysit Conner and Kaylie (i think that's how i spell it)...there as much fun as a bag of rabie infested tasmanian devils...but they can ( Read more... )

damn...alot of shit went down yesterday....first off the TMNT movie was KICK ASS!!! but before that somethin happened that was kinda good and annoying...see the day before the movie Buuru called to see when we where going i told her and we where talking and she said that when she was leaveing for the bus Lloyd told her see u tommorow at the wow 7 ( Read more... )

ok either things are getting better...or getting ready to crash....00...i got the guts to write him a note to ask why he didn't like me..he wrote back...he didn't answer...but... XD LMFAO he gave me the full Llama song ...it made my day...he wrote that he would talk about the other stuff in person..meaning my question..so all day i was on the edge ( Read more... )

god damn i just wanna tackle him....*squeeeeeeee* i got a hug from Lloyd today YAY! shuuichi brought the FF7 movie the sec half for me...and i know Lloyd would die to have it..so rubbed it in his face ^.^ lol and then he did that wierd wide eyeied face and walked over and put his arm around me and said u r very lucky....i know he was doin that to ( Read more... )

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!! im gunna go see TMNT on friday with Buuru and Momiji!!!! i can't wait! im so happy he's starting to talk to me more..and somethin happend...um mabye im imagining it...i was walking to my locker and and passed him. well at that time he was walking away from me...i left my locker and i was going back the same way and he was at ( Read more... )

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I LOVE DDR!!!! ^.^...WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ( Read more... )