Innocence is not ignorance.

[soul_serenade]

I have uncharacteristically denied myself the right to feel. For the last ten months I have burried every emotion as far down as I could ever possibly dig, and now someone I never thought would really impact me, has shaken me awake. "You know the why, now figure out the how." I am at the point where I am so afraid of thinking because I just don't

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[cleverisall]

so i cant say i truly know how you feel because i have never gone through such a thing (although i did have my heart semi-cracked open back in september when ej and i were going through a tough time) but i just wanted to tell you that i think this entry is beautifully written. it helped me realize that day after day the only thoughts i have are for my boyfriend, or someone other than me. i cant seem to remember the last time i thought about what i wanted or put myself first. i think i will start tomorrow doing just that.

i hope things work out for you. in my experience, i can honestly say that it is usually when you least expect it that something good happens to come along. just keep your head up and a positive outlook and youll see just that.

[soul_serenade]

thank you so much, it was like all of a sudden I realized that something was bothering me, and I needed to write it down in order to realize what it was, but i've been concious of everything, and today was a lot better. And I agree, I think women in general get really caught up in pleasing other people, especially their men, but it's nice to stop and look every so often at how we're treaing ourselves. I hope you have refocused some of your energy on yourself too :0)