last night it was so hard to fall asleep. i stayed layed there till about 4. it sucks when you can't sleep. today i had trouble eating. i tried and tried but i kept feeling sick. that's not a good thing. i think i just have too much on my mind. i need some kind of pill that's like a cleanup. i want to forget about the past ( Read more... )

I have so much on my mind right now. it sucks when you don't have anyone to talk to. i'm starting to think mike is the only one for me. i'm starting to think we are supposed to be together. he's my one. we honestly went through a shit load. we stuck together and were as happy as can be in the end. he put up with all my shit. he did shit just to ( Read more... )

I'm through with you. If there is one thing in this world i can't stand, it's a lier. you lied to me. to my fucking face. thanks so much! thanks for putting me through this pain for nothing. i'd much rather sit and miss mike than be hurt by you. it was dumb rey!! just forget about me and everything i ever said to you. EVERYTHING! i don't mean ( Read more... )

today was a fun day. a lot of my family came over and we had a fish fry. i drank a little too much today but that's okay i didn't get drunk. rey never called that was the downpart to today ( Read more... )

today was very nice. i didn't go to the doctor. which is okay. it seems like nothing is wrong with me. i'm going to wait till next week to see if it's still all screwy ( Read more... )

why does he do this to me? he can make me the happiest person alive but also make me that saddest girl ever. i miss him with all my heart. i'd do anything in the world for him. why does he take me for granted? why does he tell me he cares and cares about everything i say but when it comes down to it, he doesn't act like he cares. i can't even eat ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here just reading through old entries. it's so funny to look back at the past. laughs, crys, etc. i remember the fun times i had with 'the mexicans' they were very silly boys. colton driving my car, drunk as fuck, about to hit a curb. we were on a hunt to find mike. that was the time mike and i hadn't come out. or my parties at my ( Read more... )

he called me today. he makes my day a lot better. he makes me happy. i'm crazy about that boy. i'm fallng ( Read more... )

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i talked to rey today. i just love talking to him. just hearing his voice makes me happy. he is in atlanta today. next he's going to las vegas THEN LA! now i'm jealous of LA! that's where i want to be this summer. haha. i hope he doesn't come through San Antonio while i'm here. he needs to come to Dallas while i'm here, hehe. i don't think i can ( Read more... )