Couldn't sleep a wink last night which is part of the reason I started to post in this again. I also slept through my alarm again (which is becoming a frequent enough problem that I need to take charge and correct) and was going to be late to work but I fixed that. I called out. :) Sure, I already had the guys waiting outside for me for about 20 ( Read more... )

 Ok, I had a whole thing in here about how I was going to bring this thing back from the dead and as I was checking out the new features, LJ sent me to a new page that explained NOTHING and then it didn't save my text....just my Subject.. This fucking piece of shit blog...meh, such is life I suppose ( Read more... )

I would fucking love it if my friends called me back. Some of them do most of the time...but its like an endless struggle to make plans or hang out. I feel like I need a pair of tits to rate with my friends. Like that's the only way to get their attention. I miss the easier times when your friends were your friends and that was it. I guess it'd be ( Read more... )

I thought words could describe how I feel but I'm at a loss...

sorry if you were expecting a great update but my life sucks and so do I. Consequentially, so does this lj.

Fuck you all ( Read more... )

I sit here at my computer every night looking for some kind of answer to pop out at me. Tonight I've finally realized that nothing will just pop out at me...there is nothing I'm looking for, but rather something I'm waiting for. I'm waiting for a solution to all my problems but tonight I've come to the conclusion that I'm fucked...proper fucked to ( Read more... )

Why is it that I'm constantly feeling let down? At work, at home, with friends and even with Dee. Most importantly with myself though...I've always had inadequacy issues but lately I can't even look at myself in the mirror without hating what I see back. And the same is true for everything else. I can't stand being at work. I try and motivate ( Read more... )

...at long last my waiting is over. A new chapter has been written and sealed and now I must start anew.

Thank you all for your support. Every single one of you.

I am almost whole.

:)

...45 days and counting...

I apologize for my silence over the past few months, to my loyal readers and to myself. When you possess the hate for everyday nuances like I do...it really hurts to not get it out in some type of medium. Well, I would just like to say that the hate is back and it's probably going to be REALLY crazy for a while. Why you ask? Well 2 reasons come to ( Read more... )