Drowning, drowning, drowning slowly down. Attempting to claw my way up, but just falling deeper down into dark abyss. No one to turn to, no one to understand. Putting on a fake smile to hide my self from the world. Continuing to drown. It's almost like the world has forgotten me and here I continue to drown screaming out for someone to save me. I ( Read more... )

I am pretty sure no one uses this site anymore. Thing of the past we have moved on to more effective social media and I say more effective because it is truly much easier to waste your time on FB then on Livejournal especially now that no one uses it. I have been feeling really down lately it's that kind of down where everything hurts inside I feel ( Read more... )

Dear Life: I choose to start living you. I am not ready to feel dead inside or out!

What the fuck is wrong with me? why does everything have this tendency to make my emotions go crazy. Today I was on Facebook (Bad mistake) I saw a friend write how she was going to go on the greg mathis show and she was getting a free trip to Chicago, and if she won she would win all this money. This right here sent me into a rage I was so angry at ( Read more... )

I am as of right now on a break from facebook, this is a very good thing. However, I didn't realize how much I depended on it for my entertainment, I keep attempting to revert to it, never knew it was such a habit until I let it go. A few months ago got diagnosed with Hashimoto's which is a autoimmune disease basically meaning my thyroid is ( Read more... )

I always try to tell myself that Christmas doesn't matter but I guess truly it does. I had these plans for Christmas in my own head and just figured it would turn out that way. My boyfriend Branden I thought I would be spending Christmas with him hence why I agreed to house sit but it doesn't look like it will turn out that way. I was hoping what ( Read more... )

I felt the need to write well, because I have a lot going on in my head that is not really face book worthy. After dating a complete and horrible douche bag hating life being sad and depressed things seem to be looking up but unfortunately they don't go up immediately it is work. I need to write about Branden and how amazing he is how I have never ( Read more... )

I look back sometimes on all the shitty things and horrible things you have said and how you always made me feel like shit to make you feel better and it makes me happy to be away from all that, so incredibly happy

Dear Sabby ( Read more... )

I want to lose 20 more pounds badly which will first make me a average size for my height, plus will make weight watchers free ( Read more... )