Hustle, hustle, Bustle, Bustle, Fake it till you make it, excercise, DDR, Work, Eat At Home, Smile as much as humanly possible, laugh instead of cry, swim, excercise, excercise that has been my life

Enough said.

sometimes i get really sick of people walking into my life and walking right back out again, i swear i have horrible abandonment issues and this just makes it all worse. I wish someone would come and stay in my life i am tired of feeling like a make friends and trust and then have someone walk out on me again, i just want to be numb and feel ( Read more... )

Well,

As far as 2007 goes i have to say it was the craziest, fucked up, learning experiences i have ever encountered. I broke someones heart which sucks and i never meant to hurt him but in doing so i learned what i want and what i need out of life, just sucks i had to hurt someone in the process but regardless of that i am happy i met and ( Read more... )

so the last few months have been insane lets see i got demoted at work, one of the clients beat the shit out of me and now i am not allowed to be anywhere near him which means i have to avoid the complex not fun, one of the guys there is dying of cancer, got stood up by someone i was supposed to hang with just a whole bunch of shitty shit sometimes ( Read more... )

 I am so broke its not even funny........
I almost feel like resorting to sitting on the side of the freeway with a sign that says no food, no family please help

So if anyone wants to hang in the next two weeks unless its free and wont use up alot of gas, i probably can not do it :(

Booo

Being broke sucks

Good things about current Job:

Pretty decent money
good relationhsips with individuals
friends at work
a few extremely wonderful staff
the power to make my own schedule

Shitty Things about current job:

my god damn work cell phone that i wish more then anything i could throw off a cliff
feeling like i am living to work
getting blamed for certain things that ( Read more... )

I am moving in only a few days and i can't wait, my life has been so good lately, it is scary how in three months i lost myself, i just dealt with it out of the feeling that i was thinking to myself at least i have someone now but in the process i ended up losing myself. I hope someday i can meet a boy where i can be happy with or without and they ( Read more... )

I figured i might as well post something seeing how it has been awhile, lets see here..... my birthday is coming up very very soon, next week i am going to california to see sarah, in the process of trying to find a new job, i have been working with kids with developmental disabilities three days a week for a few hours and i absolutely adore it, ( Read more... )

I am happy
Life if good
Just wanted to let you all know i am alive and kicking.

<3

P.S-I woke up this morning with my boyfriend telling me how beautiful i am it was amazing!

I havent updated this thing in awhile so i thought i woud take the time to write some stuff down, first of all i have a boyfriend, which at first i was freaked out of my mind to be with at first because comitment scares me, but i think he is growing on me, i like the way he loves to cuddle, i love the comfort level i feel around him like i have ( Read more... )