Fuck. The thing with cussing is this: it sounds awful coming out of the mouth of anyone, but looks so damn good on paper. Anyway, I think carelessness is fantastic. It's one of those things I love to hate, actually, everything is. I experience internal conflicts over everything, until i've convinced myself not to love or hate anything. Even myself ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get the urge to just drive past the houses, past the ocean, past the horizon. Just keep on going and eventually find out where I'll end up. Perhaps that is why God has kept my parents from buying me a new car.

her ankles were crossed and locked. her knees were rammed together. her lips were firmly pressed together. her eyes were shut ( Read more... )

Last night gina, julie and i had a sleepover party with: kurt, jules, kyle, ray, jiro, mike, pj, and steve. although we didn't end up playing 2 am twister or going bowling, i didn't get to sleep until 4:30 am. I would be alot more tired if I didn't have narcolepsy.

Tell her you think shes cool.
Tell her why you think shes so cool.
Smell her hair.
Talk ( Read more... )

New Years is not a time for resolutions. It's not a time to get drunk. It's not a time to party like its 1999. It's also not a time to kiss someone just because its midnight. New Years is a time for one thing...FIREWORKS. Fireworks are my everything. On December 31st, six very inebriated girls busted into a very crowded hotel party and yours truly ( Read more... )

IN LIFE NEWS:

• I love Christmas.
• the asscapade fire has been blown out, smothered in water, and then peed on. between two car doors so that no one would notice.
• im sort of frustrated/very refreshed by the lack of involvement on his end. it doesn't bother me anymore when he says he'll call and doesn't. but it does bother me when he texts me at 4 in ( Read more... )

keep a tight grip like a child
holding onto a swing set
waiting and hoping to find what i can't figure out yet
please don't, unless this is something you mean
another nightmare instead of a dream
better left alone

because you don't call her more than once a day. because you dont get jittery everytime she walks into the room. because you don't ( Read more... )

tonight, gina and i went bowling. we did pretty well. (high 60s) without bumpers. apparently you have to be under 7 for that shit. see if they're ever getting my money again... they actually probably will since i have to practice if i want to join harvard's bowling team next year.

i also got to see jules. dancing. and kurt rapping. and i stole kyle ( Read more... )

the louder she sings the harder it is for them to hear her thoughts. she is distracted by everything that does not go on around her. she needs something, anything, to take her mind off of just about everything. but nothing works. it's like she was diagnosed with a terminal illness that will never kill her. yesterday, she wanted to get married in ( Read more... )

The accumulation of many random thoughts: (because big girls use paragraphs.) if i only loved the idea of you than why does this suck so badly. how can i learn from the mistakes that i am so fond of making? anytime i say things to other people they make sense to them, but are completely false to me. "have another drink and drive yourself home." ( Read more... )

Ok so first things first. http://www.comfortchannel.com/prod.itml/icOid/4096. I want. No. I need. So i wrote an email to daddy dearest, and he wrote me back telling me he would have nothing to do with buying me sex toys. Okay. well that was a little awkward. But ( Read more... )