feeling of loneliness or how ever one should feel comfortable... the day the blood ran from my veins i thought i would be the happiest for the rest of my life. having two friends that really cared for me, and i actually pretended that it was true, that they really did care for me. but in truth their feeling toward me must have been something out my ( Read more... )

nobody reads these anyway so why not actually write what im actually feeling, its not like anyone will see it ( Read more... )

Good Weekend!!!

Well the fight was minimal actually there wasent one really he told me to take it out sunday and i refused. that was it he still brings it up and keeps telling me to take it out but im not going to. fuck him he screwed up my life. i still love him and i always will. i just dont care for what he tells me anymore. i look at it like your doing things ( Read more... )

I pierced my lip, and got some yummy peach cookies from travis thank you very much by the way. kimmys in bloomington wont be back until thursday. kinda bummed about that. i really want to hang out wiht jen anad rita but as time goes on the more it seems improbable. i miss them so much. i regret so much in my life and i think the inabliety to stay ( Read more... )

well here is my life today i fixed the computer i have so much to do but i dont feel like doing anything or really even thinking for that matter its 1 30 and im still in my pjs.i havent been able to get a hold of anyone and my life insturcters are fitting agian but that has become a part of life so w/e. i found ritas number so im going to give her ( Read more... )

WELL I HAVE SIX DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL AND IM GETTING A LITTLE SCARED. NOT BECAUSE OF GRADES BUT BECAUSE IM SUPPOSED TO APPLY TO WASHINGTON. AND THAT SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME. EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT IT I GET REALLY EXCITED AND THEN I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT AND IN REALITY I AM ONLY TWO YEARS FROM LEAVING EVERYONE I KNOW AND LOVE. I REALIZE THAT AND I ( Read more... )

You scored as Suicide ( Read more... )

well screw this i haven't been on this site in a month and um tired of writting what i think will please people. the last entry was a test to see if any one read , and if they did a test to see if they would make a commit to let me know that i still had friends. i dont,... plane and simple as that. even my best friends didnt say anything. i read ( Read more... )

well its april 1 and im at kimmys. yeah, tomarrow im going down to ball state for some hair rasin' fun. its going to be great. well miss charming is in the shower so i have god knows how long until she gets out to write in this. um.... school was ok i have an a+ in two of my five classes. the rest are bs and cs go figuer. im supposed to see ryan ( Read more... )