From the outside, it looks like i got a hold on most aspects of my life and things are going well. I wish things were that way though. In all honesty I have never in my life been so miserable and uncertain about everything. I dont know what I am doing anymore, there is nothing that I am certain about anymore. Things are just not the same anywhere. ( Read more... )

What would it be like if my mind worked like the majority of the world? Why do I think the things I do, or say the things I say? What makes me second guess absolutly everything I have ever done and ever will do. What if I never have these feelings? What the heck is my problem, I second guess my second guessing. Going on...

So, my cousin was the number one play on sportscenter today. How crazy is that? He plays hockey for Boston College and they are in the National Championship game on Saturday against Wisconsin. Can you imagine being a true freshmen and not only being the top play on sportscenter but playing for a national championship? That is unbelievable. Guess we ( Read more... )

I dont get me sometimes. Why do I care about what others will think so much. I mean in some things it really impacts the way I act, and on others does not at all. The funny things is, I think I have it completely reversed from everyone else. Alcohol, parties, fights, things like that I can say no to as easy as pie. But, when it comes to everyone ( Read more... )

Well, basketball season kicked off this past weekend. Well kind of. It was not exactly the comeback i had envisioned for the past year and a half. In fact, I am not sure that it could of gone much worse. In a matter of two games to go from being the first guard off the bench to not even playing, that is bad. I really dont even know who the guy was ( Read more... )

So, in the time since my latest entry, a lot of things have been going on. Some good and some bad ( Read more... )

Wow, it has been a long time since I have updated this thing. In a brief overview of everything right now, life is good. I am back and school and loving life. Spent two great days in Ann Arbor with some old high school buds, which we definetly have not done enough since we left for college. I guess you kind of forgot how much fun you have with them ( Read more... )

Well, it iis kind of funny, I always joke that I have the body of someone twice my age. Well, everyone always laughed at me and even I said it jokingly. But, all of us were wrong. Yesterday I went to the doctor and heard some of the worst news I could of ever dreamed of. I am 20 years old, you dont think about the abuse you put your body through. ( Read more... )

So, lately has just been a trying time, so different than anything I have ever experienced in my life. I am sure I will get through it. But, it is just kind of weird, how different I have handled things. How my needs have changed in just the past 2 weeks. Nothing goes as expected and I really just dont know what to do anymore ( Read more... )

I think that is all I will ever be at anything. Just good enough in the classroom to get by. Just good enough on the basketball court to play for the team, or on the golf course, to be competetive. Just good enough as a friend to be there for people when they need me, but when I am not needed then I guess I am not good enough for me to really need ( Read more... )