I told him that I wanted off the merry-go-round and it was over. I told him that and then it took him three days to call back and say goodbye. But he didn't say goodbye, he just kept talking about nothing and acting like nothing happened. When he finally did say goodbye it killed me. I still want him. Why do I still want him? After he hurt me ( Read more... )

Geez I haven't written in here in forever. There isn't a lot to say. Same old stuff going on. I weighed 125 this morning but was 126.5 yesterday so who knows how much I really weigh. My stomach is all sticking out - I hate it. I can handle having all my other droops and bumps but I can't handle my stomach sticking out - I want to diet until it ( Read more... )

So I am back to my day to day routine after a flurry of annoying wedding and birthday celebrations all consisting of food consumption. I cooked a yummy one pot meal in my crockpot out of my weight watchers cookbook this weekend. I like it a lot and it is way cheaper than buying taco bell and mcdonalds. I am going to start cooking more I think. ( Read more... )

So my guy called me yesterday (he is back to being my guy now I guess!) - he said that when he was driving home Monday night he had a warm feeling and smile on his face and he just sat and enjoyed it remembering everything. I told him I felt the same way! He said he still had that feeling yesterday - I told him me too! Geez when it is good with ( Read more... )

So my guy came over last night for my birthday - he was good : ) He brought me a $100 gift certificate to Macy's (he knows I want some shoes there) and a gift certificate to Victoria's Secret and a kinda dumb boy card and some flowers that were just from the grocery store but the were pretty. And then he gave me over two hours of the best sex I ( Read more... )

So today is my birthday. I wanted to be 127 by today. I am 126.5 - yeah! My stomach is still huge though - hate it! - and I feel all bloated - probably from all the crappy crackers I ate yesterday. The wedding Saturday set me back, but so goes life. The guy called me last night LATE - he said he was at the airport, but I could totally tell he ( Read more... )

So I was 125.5 today - surreal! My first weight was actually 124.5. Whatever - makes no sense cause I was 127 yesterday, but I had been depressed 'cause I was stuck there. I haven't had a breakdown since the bridal shower, except Wednesday were I ate 1600 calories - but that is how much I burn in a day so it wasn't really bad. I am stoked ( Read more... )

So this morning I was 127. I was crazy hungry yesterday cause I screwed up and ate some suzy q's first thing in the morning which messed with my blood sugar, and I ended up eating 1,600 calories, which is what I am supposed to burn in a day but still I feel guilty. I am just stressed about the secretary's wedding on Saturday - why does it have to ( Read more... )

So my official weight today is 127.5 - don't know if it was all water or not. I don't care at this point. I think I looked better for the couple of days I was 126. I keep on fighting with myself over whether I should buy a Tanita scale - I don't have a lot of money and it would be expensive, but it would tell me my percentage water and it would ( Read more... )

I am at work. What a happy day. My big boss is in New York and the little boss is in clinic all day so I am all to my self. Yeah! I brought a radio/cd player into work - I have been so bored and I thought it would give me some energy to clean the damn place up and I think it is ( Read more... )