So today I weighed 127.5 - yeah! - down from 128.5 yesterday. I was peeing like crazy last night so I think it was water weight I was retaining from my day of eat JUNK FOOD. I just ate some salmon sushi rolls which are supposedly 300 calories - I think the rice in them makes me retain water so if I weigh more tomorrow that is probably what it is ( Read more... )

I feel fat. All this crap about having one day off of eating to boost your metabolism is crap to me - makes me fat and hungrier after. I am back to 128.5 and want to get back down to 127 at least by my birthday which is in 12 days, which is entirely mathematically doable - but that doesn't mean my body will do it - may retain water, etc.. I want ( Read more... )

So much of this journal is dedicated to that asshole that I used to call "my guy" - what a waste. I don't know what or why I am so mad at him exactly - just that he is pulling the usual "I don't know if I got a page from you or not, my pager is broken" bullshit. Like I even page that much. Aggh. He called me and did not ask one thing about me ( Read more... )

So I just did the 20 minutes of floorwork from Carmen Electra's 2nd Striptease workout video. I NEVER do any physical exercise, so it was someplace to start. I have fibromyalgia and if I start exercising too fast too much I get sick and wind up in bed for weeks, so I have to go VERY SLOW. I will do this 20 minute video every day or maybe every ( Read more... )

Well I appear to be done with my period weight - I was back down to 126 or 126.5 this morning - think that is a little low given my pre-period weight and a couple of days of eating crap - so I am probably really 127, which is fine with me. My new aim is 119 - it is surreal to me that I might get down that far - like a dream but really I am close ( Read more... )

So I think I am like 128 now. My period and two days of eating sweets really did me in. 127 was my short term goal and I feel like an idiot for feeling so crappy for going back above it - why should I hate myself for one frigging pound? I was looking at a website that said my ideal weight was 119 - I was thinking about shooting for 120 so maybe ( Read more... )

Uggh. What a couple of days I have had. On Monday I ate FOUR pieces of cake - they were little but still too many calories. Then the next day I started my period (which explains the cravings) and I ate all these damn cookies and brownies that at a damn bridal shower. So two days that will set me back a WEEK AND A HALF or so. FUCK. Then ( Read more... )

Well I told my officemate at work about what happened with my guy. He kind of made me feel better - first he said "what an interesting guy" - meaning I guess what he did wasn't exactly normal. Then he said that maybe something in my tone when he said he wanted to come over the day before made him think I didn't want him too (cause my office mate ( Read more... )

So I ate my normal breakfast (1/2 a cup of kashi go lean cereal and a little skim milk), then at work 1/4 of a bagel with light cream cheese and now I just finished lunch, a lean cuisine lasagna and a little bag of carrots, so I am up to 500 calories. I am going to try to be really good and not eat much else until tonight so I can have my Taco ( Read more... )

Well somehow after my nachos binge on Wednesday I managed to just be 127 today - probably because I drank a lot of caffeine yesterday that took off water. I am all crampy and bloated as I am PMS'ing - screw this. I am wearing a size 2 skirt today, but it is a little tight around the waist and tummy - it would probably be fine if it wasn't for ( Read more... )