everything seems to be a blob now. the summer flew by and now im getting married weird i know but im over it... first semster came and went and now im looking graduation in the face...im cought some place between excitment and terror. i dont know if ill get a job i dont know if ill have money to pay back student loans i really dont know much right ( Read more... )

Its been almost a year without G and a hell of year its been. To see the steps that graddad has taken i still remember the day he walked in those parallel bars and all he wanted to do was go home...and i think it broke his heart everytime i said soon. and soon came 5 months later. it seems like just yesterday i was driving 90 down the freeway to be ( Read more... )

i dont really know where to start...everything seems so fucked up now...things with my best friend are well up and down all the time i just want to shake him and tell him to wake up like i did when he got into drugs and drinking all the time hes going no where fast again and i cant handle it all i want is for him to be happy for himself and happy ( Read more... )

everything is crazy up here. my roommate wants me to move out so she can have her own room. she freaked out the other day yeah i dont ahve a clue idk what the issue seeing how im never home but whatever. im staying crazy busy bible boy is still draging me to church 7 days a week. and im still in ROTC. im not so much looking forward to break seeing ( Read more... )

haslett the place i called home or more like idnifided with for the last 13 years is not just a place to me. it was hard coming back here.i felt so out of place. it just wasnt the same. everyone had all of these emtionaly charged good byes and i got nothin i want to go back up north. my old stalmpin ground isnt mine anymore. its been past on to ( Read more... )

so i joined the ROTC thing and i love it however my knees cant take it much longer it looks like me commison dream is just memorie now. im dropping at sememseter. i have no idea waht to do know this is all ive wanted to do since i can remember.

things are crazy here people are alot different than my friends back home. i hung out with jordan last night ummm awkward...had my army PT yesterday and thanks to that i can hardly walk today. i hope they are right i hope it will get better later right now i think its all lies. talked to both my brothers they seem to be doing really well. i really ( Read more... )

so i didnt go to prom this year i worked a show instead. i learned alot of stuff im going to need for next year witch is more important to me then prom. i made a lot of people mad but i dont care its my life not theres. i dont like big groups of people and i dont do well in situations like that im sorry. Chaz did some wicked sweet shit for me to. ( Read more... )

its been forever since ive updated. everything seems a little off. i feel like an outsider at tech. i dont know why it seems like everytime im there some one is pissed off at me. i dont know whatever. i cant wait to go away to school. the magic show is over now it was another good year. everyone was happy it is over with now. tons of shit went down ( Read more... )

i miss him. i see so much of him in chaz its fucks with my head. trying to make it all make sence he doesnt understand- im not upset im remembering its something he can help with or understand. i think about ken alot more now it hurts i dont understand. he was just such an amazing person. he was unlike any friend i have not in a good or bad way ( Read more... )