Well as it turns out, my parents came to me. they were concerned and brought it up themselves. they say they're going to send me to 'talk to someone who knows how to handle this better', aka a shrink. i dont know if it will actually happen, but i think it might be good for me. i have alot on my mind, and going down the path of an eating disorder is ( Read more... )

i think i might need help. i dont know though, i cant be sure.

...i just dont know if its worth starting so much shit over.

& i sometimes feel like its all just spiralling out of control.

clubbing for my birthday yesterday was fun...about 20 of my friends came out, which i really really appreciated. the club wasent as busy as i would have liked, but whatever, my birthday has come and gone and it was a good one.

i got:
- dolce & gabbana "light blue" perfume (parents) <3 <3 <3 ( Read more... )

wellll the time has come....

IM OFFICIALLY EIGHTEEN!!!

and to be honest, it feels exactly the same. :)

[note to self: goddamit i still like him!!]

edited to add: but you know what? a day is what you make it, so im going to put all the shittyness and issues in my mind aside and PARTY!

Venessa, Allison, Cassandra, and I are going on a road trip to Montreal today for some shopping!! Im sooo excited. My mother isint thrilled with me driving with such an "unexperienced" driver for a long distance, but whatever, my excitement is surpassing any worry ( Read more... )

well, obviously an amazing weekend had to turn into a shitty week. it was just in the stars, i guess.

things are weird between rob and i. saad's pissed at me. my mom and i are in a fight...

its just like the shit hit the fan and now all goes downhill.

for god sakes.

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry ( Read more... )

well ( Read more... )

yes, im really really bored. stolen from cait.

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another fun night last night...a bunch of us went to chris'...drank, ate, smoked, got rowdy. hah...i love my parents being away ( Read more... )