I hate him, I love him.
I hate him, I love him.
I want to bathe in his blood,
I want to bask in his glow.
I want to rip out his tounge,
I want to taste his sweet lips.
I want to rip off his arms,
I want to embrace him.
I hate him, I love him.
I love him, I love him.

So I'm posting in protest of this fruity little protest being put on by all the butthurt bitches who can't deal with Ads and make new journals every 2 months. Look, I've had this journal since I was 14 and I don't have ads. "But Spencer, what about those people making new journals?" Fuck um, that's what. Look, this is the internet and ADs are a ( Read more... )

I figure that one day I'll either kill myself or die of an overdose. Maybe someone will kill me and save me the stigma of being the suicidal one, or maybe I'll die in an accident. Maybe an innocent bystander in a drive-by, maybe hit by a car. Either way, I don't expect to live a very long life ( Read more... )

I took all my clothes off and laid in the grass in the rain last night. It was awesome.

To follow that rather angry post I have a poem I wrote at work while I was waiting for people to come into the shop. I rather like it, although it could use some work maybe. Let me know.

The ObeliskOver golden waves I drift ( Read more... )

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My job is lame, every guy I'm interested is pathetic and in love with one of his exes, my boss is ripping me off for a break that I don't get to take, but for some reason I'm fine with it. I figure that I'll get a guy eventually and I'll have a decent job that I don't despise in the end.

The bronchitus sucks bulls balls though.

I'm happy because last night a guy I was really nuts about for a while (we were sorta fuck buddies and I got attached) decided to give up on his ex and give me my chance. We aren't going to be serious, but we're "dating". That's better than "just friends" and more legit than "fuck buddies" I think. I like this, I have my foot in the door and have ( Read more... )

-I'm not dead yet motherfuckers ( Read more... )

WTF is up with all the guys I ever get interested in? They're always chasing after some chick that dumped them in horrible ways. They fucking seem so in love with these girls who treat them like shit and while they show interest in me they can't bring themselves to let this chicks go. I'm so fucking tired of this bullshit. I just want to lock ( Read more... )