It's been a long time.

[spinto]

I feel like I need to talk to the world. I doubt many people still follow this, so it'll be nice to feel like I'm getting the word out without really doing so. My father has been very ill. He's been in the ICU for almost a week now. He's intubated, on a ventilator, and non-responsive most of the time. On Tuesday, the same day my father had

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[sistersolace]

I know you feel alone, and that me saying otherwise isn't REALLY going to help, but I feel the need to anyway. You have a supportive and loving family and group of friends. Even those of us who are far away still love you lots, and we're glad to be a sympathetic ear if you need it.

(And by "we" I mostly mean "me" in the above, but I'm pretty sure I'd have to get in the Scott's-friends-who-care line and wait my turn. ;P)

Please remember to be gentle with yourself. Don't assume you should be able to just get over things or move past them just because you're normally good at it, Leo-boy. Ok?

Afraid e-hugs will have to do, what with the 1000 some odd miles. *hugs*

[spinto]

I know, and I really do appreciate it. Everyone I've told has been extremely supportive. Even her family.

Part of the loneliness comes from the fact that even though I do have a large support group who's been great, I can count on one hand the number of people I can turn to within a 300 mile radius. And most of them are also upset about my father and so I'm trying not to burden them with my issues, and instead rely on the long distance support. It's just difficult. Especially at 12:30am when I need to wake up for work in 4 hours.

But regardless, thank you. It truly does mean a lot.

[sistersolace]

Yeah, I hear you... on one hand, thank god for the internet when shit gets fucked up and most of your close friends are elsewhere.

Oooon the other hand, it's not really any substitute for several shots of whiskey and some Serious Conversation on the front porch at late o'clock. :P

[spinto]

There's just no trading sitting around listening to Jim Croce songs...

[little_cthulu]

I couldnt agree more with sistersolace. Take your time.

But please don't think you're a burden. People love you and want you to be happy, let them help you. Even if you need the help at 1am.

[nanikore]

Sorry to hear about those things. You're always welcome to talk with me. I haven't checked my LJ friendslist for years (I think I've forgotten that there IS a friendslist feature until now) and I mostly just post inane stuff.

I remember a period of them when I felt alone and really down. I had my parents but I couldn't really talk to them about my issues. I had nobody but God to complain to. Try it- it helped me. Ask, even something simple like "God, please help me feel better somehow" would do.

I'm here for you, man.

[asylum_at_sea]

Dude. I am so sorry I wasn't around for this. I should've been in touch.