I am no expert on love or relationships. But from what i have learned from my current relationship is that there are many steps involved in loving someone. The first step is initial attraction. That feeling that you just "know" that this person clicks. Chemistry. Its true. Its there. The second step is the time period when you can't keep ( Read more... )

guess what. i fucked up again. can you imagine that?

This is the lowest of the low. I will never be in a position like this ever again. I promiseTo everyone that is succeeding in their goals, in school, in relationships, I am so happy for you. You are all inspirational ( Read more... )

i'd kill to go back in time and smack the bitch i used to be. it's great to be out past midnight but when your mother doesn't want it and you want a free house and free food...you should do what you gotta do. it's all fun and games when you move out and live with your pals...but sooner or later it kicks in, and you find it isn't all happy happy ( Read more... )

"i love you jessica"

i don't care how drunk he was he STILL said it! AHAHAHAHHAHA YES!!!

p.s. i have pink eye (sick)

after what is hopefully my very last drug binge...andy decided to move out. not becuase of us...but becuase of tammy and dan. they treated him terribly ...asking them "do you realize you left your girlfriend alone at home all day today?" its like...stay out of our business ( Read more... )

hehehahahaahha i have the sweetest story ever KINDOF...not really but i thought it was funny ( Read more... )

andy never came home last night from buckethead. all i can think of is the one thing i wanted him to not do. i'm sure it has been done. and i'm sure that's why he never came home. tomorrow marks 4 months for us.

i wish he would want to spend time with me again.

i <3 2 roll.

HAHAHAHAHHAHA ahahah. but really.

went to the doctor today...this time he prescribed me zoloft instead of celexa and i'm feeling noticibly drugged from it. i think how this works is it just confuses your mind into just forgetting that youre sad. whatever the reason...i hope it works.

friday night i had the most extreme anxiety attack i've ever had in my life. andy and i went to bed a little irritated by each other and he fell asleep and i stayed awake just worrying. got to the point where i shot up in bed and heard a million thoughts go through my head. thought about killing myself and eventually just ran out of the room and ( Read more... )