IF ANYBODY IS AROUND LJ-TOWN AT THIS HOUR ON THIS FRIDAY MAY 9TH, AND SEES THIS ENTRY, PLEASE DO ME THE EXTREME FAVOR OF INSTANT MESSAGING ME AIM = BURNINGVIOLAS

THANKS, I OWE YOU MY LIFE

-ALIE

I went into the back bathroom just now to wash my hands (there’s nothing I hate more in the world than sticky hands). And so mundane was the task that I didn’t notice a few black smudges in the sink, paralyzed as the cold water rushed over them, until one of them moved. O, yes- the back bathroom has been infiltrated by tiny black ants. They crawled ( Read more... )

on the website it says they ARE coming to camden.  i don't know what to think.  but i know what i want to think.

now now now i may be completely mistaken but reading this email in front of me it seems to be apparent that my absolute favorite entity in the entire universe that is the highlight of my sad existence is NOT COMING TO CAMDEN THIS SUMMER AND I AM SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY ABOUT TO KILL SOMEONE well they have shows in hershey and scranton but i probably ( Read more... )

 In and out of that funeral home like black fire; I got to see Lisa’s daughters, just stare at them awkwardly, actually, while they giggled in high little bird voices on one couch, while their grandfather lay dead in a casket a few feet away.  I guess anyone would be happy that he has been released from his pain.  At my great grandmother’s viewing ( Read more... )

I am in preparation for Lisa’s funeral.  Of course it is not Lisa who has died, but I am going for her.  I am deadly afraid of her seeing me there, and her whispering to me in a hush, “You never should have come!”  And I will look her earnestly in her reddened eyes, and say, “I came for you, Dr. McKernan.”   And she will say, “Come for me at school ( Read more... )

i don't know what i am going to do about Dr. McKernan.  i guess all i can do now is pray, and try not to shed too many tears.  Dr. McKernan, you're out there somewhere, God, watch over her and her family.  She told me that she counts every day with him as a blessing, and understands when God must take him home.  so i hope she is going to be ok.  ( Read more... )

I recognize that I have no place in the world.  I see that where I once held on, my grasp has weakened and fallen…  I remember knowing exactly what my life was about, if the curve is to be trusted; I can even remember numbers.  Do you know that this weekend last year was the weekend of the Orionids?  And that we sat outside in the freezing cold ( ( Read more... )

i mean, i look at a girl, let's call her Girl Z.  She's absolutely beautiful, not cheesy fake beautiful but like, we're talking seriously attractive here.  and she knows how to dress, she can be dauntingly sexy with just a simple blouse with jeans.  ok, so i've seen her over-do the makeup once or twice.  but her face.  it's utterly angelic, ( Read more... )

i haven't been updating is that to update something must be partially fake, for me anyway.  to update i must take a step back.  the fact is, i cannot separate myself from my strong feelings at this point.  but i suppose this is the first step.  ok. i can't even say anything really.  do you wonder what it's like here?  thank you for wondering.  i ( Read more... )