been a long time :( ill be brief here ..jan got my hoose 24th still ill with f****ing sciatica been depressed.rolling onto n ow May! aunt died last month .just a nightmare all round i guess ( Read more... )

wel finally my relationship with dan has ended :( it didnt really get going for me and in hyndsight which is no use to anyone i shouldnt get involved , i thought i was` over jon and quite clearly wasnt .. along with everything else ive got going on it didnt work , wasnt pleasent deciding it but in the long run , its for the best , am very ( Read more... )

well some good news at last although tomorrow will be all important, i only need to peices of paper for the accountant to finalize my lAST YEAR ACCOUNTS , that inturn should trigger my mortgage application then the offer ,then hopefully i get my new house around xmas time (all guess work ) but hope so , then i can finnaly get re-united with my ( Read more... )

now which mood does spuddy have today ....:-0 :-(it changes so fast sure its the tablets im taking :( that reminds me wondered why my pain was here after getting up.... pills are yes the doc said it would help if i remembered to take em hi to all my new friends in the usa .wheya

SAT AT DANS WHILST THE RAIN LASHES THE WINDOW :( am off to see a panto thingy tonight by the league of gents hope it cheers me up , went and poped into my moms and as usual you could here the tv half way up the drove , i dont know how her neighbours cope ( Read more... )

as usual a day doesnt go by without a problem apppearing to stress ,and depress me , took the dogs for a walk as usual and they ended up attacking aalsation that some other guy had on a lead , it made me ashamed , embarased and totally depressed with there behaviour from one day to the next, "tiny" is a french mastiff and the person or should i ( Read more... )

woke this morning with horrendus back ache , being ill since march 04 is really draining me mentally :( sat here on dan,s sofa im still as mixed up as ever , really cant work out if i want a relationship with him,or anyone when im like this , am thinking of tryingaccupuncture ?? anyone with a comment on this would be great ?? is there any one ( Read more... )

well today i woke up a complete different man... after getting into bed last night as usual cuddled up to dan but then managed to relax enuff for things to get "hot " far hotter than they have done in a while ... still rather trapped between wanting a relationship wiv dan and sulking with the past and finding things too much at times ( Read more... )

well the game against blues has gone and gone , we won 1-0 yehhhhhhh but the lift i thought it would give me has been shortlived..didnt get the shop unit i was after and that sent me spiraling back into depression , life has been turned upside down am sick of tablets sick of being in constant pain and not happy with my faggot of a life :( but hey ( Read more... )

yesssssssssssss.. elation we won the local bragging rights 1-0 against birmingham yess good on you upp the villa .yiiiiiippieeeeeee