Lifes starting to go in the direction that I've been wanting it too for so long. Im not quite excited about school, but ready for it this time. I don't feel like its a waste and I am not feeling depresses in any sort of way. I plan on taking 3 courses on campus and probably one online course so that I can keep my schedule simple and easy. My boy is ( Read more... )

I hate being a girl. Totally sucks. Makes me totally exhausted. Irritable. And its like a week early so its all a real pain. so if I snap, thats why. sorry!

fun realization for the day.

so remembering things and thinking about certain subjects when your really tired, lil grumpy, and what not at night. Not such a great idea. The mind just doesn't rationalize it the right way.

There's a video game that I have actually come to want to play. Its called Rockband. And i love playin with my brother and my family. Playing it made me realize how much I miss the orchestra and playing within one. Playing my viola. For days now I've been meaning to take out my viola. Tune it up, and play some of the Hollywood/Disney songs that I ( Read more... )

Its been one hell of a weekend. I was terrified of how it was really going to go, or how I was going to feel! But I woke up saturday morning feeling good. I enjoyed relaxing and reading my book. Then helped my mom cook different things, made dishes that I had never made before! Had a lot of fun playing the I Love Lucy Trivia game with all my ( Read more... )

I'm nervous bout how my life is going to go. I keep believing that it will all turn out well and I have to stay that way. As soon as i get my papers in then it will all work. Then I can get a job, and get my head on straight. Things have been so confusing lately, except my relationship with my boy. I can't thank him enough for being so supportive ( Read more... )

I can't believe it. You read my writing, and still you act as tho it is all nothing or even invisible! If I Scream Will You Notice!

I could not imagine what it would be like to give your baby away to a familly member, to where you would see them constantly but not be the mother. To be the aunt. I understand people giving their babies up for adoption. Especially when they cannot give their children what they need. But I think it would be way too hard just to watch the whole time ( Read more... )

Its weird, I'll have weeks/months where I will dream every night. About random things but I will still dream. Then I'll have periods of times where I will have no dreams what so ever. I just think its interesting, and I have yet to find the true reason for my dream patterns ( Read more... )

So whats your new excuse to not telling me stuff about our family? First it was I was too young. I wasn't adult enough to know in your minds. Then its the excuse that I'm never home. NEVER HOME MY ASS. I'm home all the f'in time now. I have no job, no friends. I hang out with my family and my boyfriend. I may be in my room but that doesn't usually ( Read more... )