i miss having friends....

I feel right on path some moments. Then others I feel like im one touch from falling off the cliff because I took the wrong path. Some things are set and make sense. Then others, don't make sense,not one bit. Im having such a hard time finding the motivation to get to school, Except for the fear of failing out and being completely screwed. I keep ( Read more... )

Kinda sucks when the person you thought were going to be sharing an apartment with for next year bales out. And you don't have anybody else. These are the days when I miss having my close friends. Morgan just kind of faded away. Im startin to really just give up on me and suzy seeing each other. I keep asking, and now I just look pathetic. So i ( Read more... )

I spent a lot of time for myself yesterday. A day of thinking. I went driving and just headed in different directions. I was nice. Just me, my thoughts, and music. What a mixture huh ( Read more... )

Im so done being sick! My stress level comes up and my immune system breaks down. The stress of my classes. The stress of my life. And I stress about fucking everything! I was able to eliminate one of the stress factors tonight. Im going to check again in a week. But im pretty sure im safe. But then I get an e-mail and I fucked up my own life. I ( Read more... )

Wake up and Smell the coffee! She Lies! She manipulates and uses anything she can to get her way. And I sit back and watch it. So what am I supposed to do? Break the truth to your blind faces of what she does. Of what I see and multiple others see. But I know I don't cause I don't want to cause friction. Everyone seems happy, maybe thats just the ( Read more... )

I keep trying to escape life. Not so successful and not such a great idea. I try to ignore whats going on. Just go on with each day. Do it the only way I know how to. My stress catches up with me at points, my fears, my thoughts, my life. I can keep running, but it all seems to still catch up and find me. Hint to others, don't do this! I feel just ( Read more... )

I've gone through a whole cycle with my feelings on letting myself cry. I went through that whole stage of middle school and early high school that I couldn't let anybody see my cry. I wouldn't. Then end of sophemore year to early senior year I just gave up on that. I just didn't care. Didn't care what other people saw of me. Then senior year, I ( Read more... )

I've heard the same story three times now. He's changed. I just couldn't tell you. I didn't want you to be mad or dissapointed. Or what not. WTF. Can't I have one best friend without this story. Thats what I want. Sad part is the one that I trust the most right now is the one who was the original for all of this. xtina is that one I go to right now ( Read more... )

Im so done with schedules and signing up for classes and just done with school. Im so ready to be off doing what I like to do. Which I can't even get close to because I've got to get all of these required core classes out of the way. Which hopefully will go with what ever major I declare. Yeah sure college life is fun, the fact that you actually ( Read more... )