there are a lot of things that you may not know about me ( Read more... )

its been three years now since the world was forced into a state of hikikomori because of the pandemic. much has been said about it, and personally speaking, it has taken my reality towards a direction i never would've taken in any other situation ( Read more... )

like everyone else, i've had a vision of what i would be doing when i get to my 30s. fast forward to today, i'm a few days before reaching it and i'm as lost as i was when i first heard john mayer's no room for squares when i was still in high school. maybe that's why i'm currently listening to the album. maybe this is why i'm here again. maybe i'm ( Read more... )

a long time ago, this livejournal was dedicated to telling a love story that thought would last a long time, and it did. it lasted as long as it could ( Read more... )

"stop flirting around ( Read more... )

the last time i was in a tour was more than a decade ago. i was young and, on most trips going to different sites, i would put on my headphones and waited until the bus rocked me to sleep or when it stopped for us to get off. i figured that traveling was very normal and easy until a few years back when realized the difficulties of traveling. even ( Read more... )

these days i'm finding lesser reasons to go out, and sometimes those reasons are just barely enough just so i won't feel like i'm being left behind by the world. sometimes, i come back home just a little bit more frustrated than leaving home. and then there are nights like last saturday that remind me of people that i actually like spending my time ( Read more... )

"i wonder when we can stop feeling this way ( Read more... )

there are a lot of things i haven't done during this december that's been pretty much different from previous years. for one, i haven't gone on my everyday-half-day tradition. i also haven't gone on a date, and actually i'm kinda okay with it. in fact, i'm feeling a little bit complacent these past few months, lacking any kind of motivation to do ( Read more... )

leaving for tokyo was depressing to say the least. no one to say good bye to, and no one saying good bye. well, except family of course. i could not help but compare my departure for tokyo with my departure for osaka. the fear of realizing that there was nothing to return to became so real that even my brother noticed how i was so out of focus even ( Read more... )