well moving out, but i like that song :) Soo Mike and I have decided that it would be best if we move into separtate places. I am going to get an apt, and he is either going to stay at the house or get an apt as well. We both need to grow individually some before we can grow as a couple. Right now we have decided to still be a couple and stay ( Read more... )

I need changes...i am just not sure what they are.... i am tired of things holding me back... i am on the right track.... how do you make decisions in life?

Who am I, why do i say mean things to people? Why do i judge people so much lately...i was never like this before...before what I dont know, when did I change? I used to not worry about me and make sure i pleased everyone, know i feel so mean and judgemental of people. Am i selfish now? am i like her, we are sisters, i dont think i am that bad. ( Read more... )

YAY!!! I JUST PAID OFF ONE OF MY CREDIT CARDS!! $325 well spent and GONE!!!! I am broke after paying it off, but I am better off with one less bill to worry about!!! if i could only get my really high credit card paid i would be doing good...but hey it takes time, baby steps. It has been a LONG LONG struggle of a year financially, and I am ( Read more... )

why did he lie...to let me let him go...now he is miserable.. do i yell at him, cry, scream, or just let him suffere in his own stupidity.... i am just thoughtless right now... why cant guys be grown up...why did he lie, is it worth it?

Well mike finally made it to NJ last night!! he arrived at his hotel at about 10ish. Long long drive, he got stuck behind a bad wreck which casued 2 hours of stop and go traffic,at one point he didnt even move a mile in one hour! A semi got 'stuck' under an overpass...kinda crazy! he was ready to be in a hotel bed at that point! his super 8 motel ( Read more... )

so there still is not repsonse yet on wether mike is going to NJ or not....however his mom keeps calling him and begging frantically for him not to go...well yesterday his dad called and was like whats going on...his question to mike was if he was doing this for an adventure, this is the wront time to go because of the winter weather, but mike ( Read more... )

I love my 'mother in law'...she is a very sweet person and will do anything for me and mike, however sometimes she just rattles my brains!!!! So mike may be going to NJ for a month or two.... its been a week long of his work flip flopping, yes i want you to go to no we cant afford to send you....very frusturating, if he leaves it will be hard ( Read more... )

well after my rant friday night on LJ, i went home and as i for saw mike was in a very un happy mood...and he started just picking at silly stuff when i knew the root issue was the money..so i flat out told him, we are not petty fighting, get to the root of the issue.....AND HE DID! he told me how he felt depressed and bothered about our money ( Read more... )

I cant be the one who fixes everything, I cant make miracles happen, I cant make money appear, I cant make debt disappear, I cant fix money problems when your job doesnt give you hours, I cant force you to get a 2nd job to cover the loss of money, its not my fault. I stayed at a job I hate to make $100 extra a week, I havent even seen a dime of ( Read more... )