my sister is due in two months...im getting kicked out...i still dont understand joel and i...i graduate in the fall of next yr...im not moving to be with joel this summer im actually looking for my own place...finally filing for financial aid for once...my emotions are wrecked in a good way to were i dont give a shit anymore about anything cuz if ( Read more... )

only good is friends and family that i have close at hand...and my sanity...im beginning to get into my drawing state...thats not a good thing i only draw when distracted confused or under stress or under great emotional struggles...its my therapy...so yeah this is supossed to be the year of the ox...screw that chinese mumbo jumbo...give me ( Read more... )

janurary is not a great year to start off.....im back in school which is exciting but things with me and joel arent the best...i thought they were but for some odd reason all of a sudden he wanted to tae a break...im still confused about that but i guess he still loves me so im goign on my way with him in the back of my mind...he calls me alot ( Read more... )

yesterday i read 12 hrs straight i havent done that in a looooooooooong time...ahhh...but i still haev 1 chapter left for this class and 2 chapters for this other class so im hoping i get more done tonight and tomarrow before work ( Read more... )

one week left till joel comes home...foudn out that he might stay down there even longer than expected adn that he thinks me coming down there for the summer would get in the way...i wonder in the way of what!!?...how can you have time for friends but not time for me...besides ill be working and taking classes down there so its not like well be ( Read more... )

things are still going good my inner feeligns are getting the best of me but im working on it...i doooooo not want depression meds or anxiety meds...they dont cure...plus its chemical im balances and my own psyche so i figured i can fix it and relize it takes time ( Read more... )

things are amaaaaaazing cant wait for my punka punka....school is going pretty good im got an A on my last exam ... have alot to do yet as far as projects...final speech final paper both worth almost half my grade...ahhhh...so yeah then i have an extra credit report to do too!..lots so my vaca will consist of eating and writing, researching, ( Read more... )

im funna grad in da fall o wenter of two phawson en teen bitches...im so happy and proud...just alot of work to get there ahhhhh

oh yeah anoher side note....a few regular shoppers at menards said i looked different...adn tehy all came to the conclusion it was how i carried myself

soemthing is happening within adn its finally starting to show

but more resently exams suck balls and im constantly wondering

"they say i dont know...but i know too much".....thats how it is!!!

i find myself running through the field of flowers...sometimes away from the wolves and sometimes toward the land of oz ( Read more... )