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[stae]

It seems to me as a means of survival or even just comfort that people will for the most part act in service for themselves. I say the most part because there are always exceptions, but generally even some of the most noble of actions tend to have some kind of service to the ego. Hence the challenge to try and transcend in a way the codes of

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[belle_a_donna]

I d like to think that the search for happiness is pointless, it didn't go anywhere its always been here its just under alot of rubble

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[belle_a_donna]

Hope i wasn't too weird on the phone today... I just thought if anything you would of known that I am not really doing very well its a bigger picture than even I thought and that as a friend you may have been a little more well no a little less.... oh fuck I don't know. Your important to me and sometimes I feel like you only put up with me for one or maybe two reasons.

I just hope we are friends in your eyes to.

****Belle

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[stae]

Pfft i think the more accurate question would be when aren't you weird on the phone. :P I do know about your efforts to remedy that aspect of your life but i guess i don't really fully appreciate the gravity of it. I haven't ever had to go through something similiar and anything close to that has been motivated partly by contempt for myself so, i don't know my will power has never been that much of an issue its my arrogance that does me in and things like that. Have had a bit of a weird week and am in a rather strange fortune bubble with a lot of things going wrong and testing my patience, which i don't mean to direct at you through a kind of apathy or not caring type attitude. im just a bit shitty and yeah anyways sorry about that. i do think we are friends and anything like only tolerating someone for a couple things. well that can be argued from different sides and is a matter of perspective. but no thats not the only reason. its also cos you still have my dvds :P

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[belle_a_donna]

And your never geting them back :p

I am sorry for my eratic behaviour to, but I have finally gone past the (mystical)three day mark and feel much more coherant and such so I know I don't make it easy and tend to be a bit dramatic but the one thing I have noticed about you is you tend to term everything far more simply than I do (blah blah not making sense again) guess I am not entirely past it then, oh well I have 5 more days before I come home...

We have to have coffee when I get back ok :)

And thank you for your comment about my peice that I wrote :) I to like riddles...