i don't know what i'm supposed to say that would make me feel relief ( Read more... )

I can't help but feel totally fucking worthless. I've been a part of many groups of friends and whatnot, but I've always felt like I never belonged. I don't know if it's that I don't feel I deserve it or if I don't actually fit in.... All I know is I'm fucking sick of feeling like I'm on the outside of an inside joke ( Read more... )

In a treacherous day, built of stone not of clay ( Read more... )

FUCK THIS MENTAL FUCK UP ARGH FUCK SHIT FUCK

SOMEONE IS GOING TO HAVE TO KILL ME BEFORE I EXPLODE AND KILL EVERYTHING! ARGH

I've had a lot of time to think recently, mostly because I've not been at work in a long time. I've been seeing a psychologist, which I never thought would amount to much and I'm surprised to say that it has somewhat ( Read more... )

25 is the new 50.

Well, I had my mental health evaluation on tuesday.

They've decided I have to start psychiatric treatment ASAP.

That's going to be fun.

I've got a mental health evaluation coming up. My doctor is "concerned" about how I deal with emotions on any level, no matter how superficial. He seems to think that I'm becoming increasingly disconnected from the world ( Read more... )

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my gran left me a bit of money

i'm gonna put most of it into savings, but im gonna buy myself a really nice guitar that i'll never get rid of

should be cool... i'd rather she still be here though :\