Well hello everybody. Is everything peaches and cream? No but fuck it all. where to begin. I don't cry anymore. Fuck all that noise. My ex and his new wife are divorced and we talk on occasion . I don't care, he moved out of state and living the dream so good on him. I got a great job and I work my ass off. My kids are still my life, One lives on ( Read more... )

Its been a while since i updated. The last time i started journaling was to help vent my sadness of my divorce. Today I come to say how happy  I am. Im single and living well with my kiddos. they are my world and my favorite people. My ex and his wife are a joke. I dont even need to speak to those people anymore they can live in their weird little ( Read more... )

Sorry I havent been on much, My ex and his girlfriend got engaged. Im dead inside. I dont wan to talk anymore.

its been 7 months since we fought and said divorce, 4 months since we finalized a divorce we both didn't want and 3 months since he met her, They've been together 3 months and they are now living together.. With my kids.. In the house I helped build. The furniture... all of the things I helped build.. She lives with my kids now. Sleeps in the bed I ( Read more... )

we had only been divorced for two weeks and had been together after. He quickly found a girlfriend soon after. I decided before there relationship progressed I would tell him how I still love him and regret the divorce. But after only 2 weeks hes already in love with her. He never wants to see me again. when i pick up our kids between visits I have ( Read more... )

So finals week is upon me, next week is my last week of pre requisites. Unfortunately my mother has introduced me to "The Walking Dead". I haven't had an interest in anything since I left home almost five months ago, so i have mixed emotions about this situation. I really want to watch but I also have to study.. So I try and do both.. It isn't ( Read more... )

Im still sad often, but m trying to focus on things. Im trying to get information so when Im done with school I can be prepared. I cant wait until summer is here so my boys can visit. im tired all the time right now. Depression is starting to crush me a little. I just feel like sleeping all the time. ugg -_-

Today was a better day. I tried to focus on my school work today. with my finals coming up Im trying my best to stay focused. I had been having a recurring dream for the past few months. I dont mean every night, just sporadically, but enough to realize theres a pattern. Usually in my dream im walking in a neighborhood. I see all the houses and ( Read more... )

I hate the rough days. Some times I wake up and am just overwhelmed with sadness. I dont know if I just dream of the past and dont consciously remember or if there is simply something else happening inside of me. I dont want to be sad, I dont want to cry. I feel like i remember the past wrong. I feel like sometimes I miss my ex-husband even though ( Read more... )