Yesterday would have been Steph's sixteenth birthday. John took me to plant flowers at her grave. We planted alyssums in lavender, dark purple, and white. Sara came around the same time I did so we all just sat there in silence for about half an hour and cried. It was a very difficult thing for me to do - I hadn't been to her grave since November ( Read more... )

the floodgates of heaven open

the angels, they cry for you

the sky spits out angry tears

it is a heavy rain.

the drops bounce off the street

why did you leave?

i stand in the shower of somber emotions

i contribute to the storm

can't you see me, longing for you?

with every tear that parts

from my salt encrusted eyes

i lose an ounce of ( Read more... )

I'm reading a really good book in English. You've probably heard of it; The Catcher in the Rye. Now I usually hate being told what to read, but this book I'm actually enjoying and reading. Yes, a two for one. I got a deficiancy today for chemistry. I got into a lot of trouble. It sparked an arguement with my mom and I was reminded of how much I ( Read more... )

So I finally created a journal...I figured only the Asians have Xanga sites these days. I'm not going to go into detail about my personal life and shit because I've come to the conclusion when others do that I find it so boring and like it's a cry for attention or something, but that's just me. Anyway, at the moment I just thought I'd like to tell ( Read more... )