so i think i am going to make a giant step in my life... a giant step very quickly and rashly... i am doing things that i normally would never do all because of this new influence on my life... i dont know where this is going, how its going to turn out or who is going to stand by me...

i am at a loss...

btw, who reads this stuff anymore?

so here I am sitting at work hating every single minute I am here... I ask myself what the fuck I am still doing with my life. I still work at blockbuster... after I quit once and two fucking years under my belt. I passed my electrians test and I haven't heard shit in a month from them... I am starting to get bummed out but I am glad that I am not ( Read more... )

To feel, feel like there's nobody here
...Feel like there's no more fear
I wanna feel like this for a year...
...Feel like there's nobody here...

i never knew a drunken rant could hurt me so much, after i wrote it... fucking a

it has been quite some time since i've written here... and i hate to say it, but its the same shit but a different day... i am still longing for things that i've lost and i cant get over it for some reason... and i still feel alone since i cant find any source of closeness in my life... its like everyone is telling me to fuck off but for some ( Read more... )

i am a fucking loser

shits going down.

i realized something right now, i doubt myself all the time... somethings gotta change.

well i havent posted here in ages. i doubt anyone really cares.

oh well, the only news i have is that i have come to a huge turning point in my life and i am happy with where i am headed. i am looking forward to the next couple of years. getting done with school, getting a good job, so on and so forth.

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i find this interesting...

whenever i feel like i am going to involve myself emotionally in someone, i just end up thinking about the past... and then i cant get off that subject and i dunno why, what the fuck is wrong with me?

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