i need to stop comparing myself to her. god, she soooooooooo skinny. and, jeez, i wish i was blond and perfect. it makes me feel really crummy about myself which is completely unnecessary. honestly, i try really hard to be okay with being me. but sometimes it's just really hard. i even wonder at times if brian sees her when he shuts his eyes and ( Read more... )

2 finals down, 2 more to go. i'm feeling alright, but i need to get started on this stupid IR final studying because it's gonna suck ( Read more... )

A is for - Age: 20 ( Read more... )

i wish i had time to sit down and write everything that went through my head. i think it would make for a really interesting book ( Read more... )

best feeling in the world: falling asleep in brian's arms after a long long day. *big smile*

i wish i knew what collin was writing in his journal that he doesn't want me (or others) to read.

i've thought of a million things lately that i should write about but when it comes down to it, i'm just too lazy to sit down and write ( Read more... )

I will be the first to admit to you that I am quite possibly the most complicated person on earth. I have more dreams, hopes and expectations than anyone else I know. People tell me that I expect a lot out of people; I expect them to be kind and generous and loving and I hope that every person has some passion, something that they would die for. I ( Read more... )

i'm a big fucking baby. brian tries to be nice and i'm a bitch. really it's a lose-lose situation. sam, you can probably understand. i'm get pissed about something stupid and i won't talk to brian. he asks me what's wrong, i say "nothing. i'm fine" and then proceed to ignore him. he tries to be nice. i keep being a bitch. i want him to go away. but ( Read more... )

I got accepted for my internship this summer at Ft. Benning in Georgia. I will be working at the Western Hemisphere Institute for Security Cooperation, aka the former School of the Americas. After my research last fall I got really interested and I'm excited to see it all first hand. Hopefully I'll leave with a better understanding of what really ( Read more... )