There really is no good reason for it but I am very content right now. I just feel good, not because anything is going well but just because nothing that really matters is wrong. I can only hope this feeling lasts! Ciao

Can't stay out late because of gear distribution 6 am.
Forgot to call when got home because he saw KC's car at the bar.
Stayed up till 4 am playin x-box with KC.
Said he woke up at 1 PM.
What happened to the 6AM gear distribution he was responsible for?

Marine Corps Ball... Nov 12, 2004!

Okay so after my mini meltdown I have to report that Dan and I finally talked last night. After three days of heartbreak hell he tells me that I got it all wrong. Don’t even ask... it’s just pure craziness if you ask me but regardless of the truth in the story I know after all the pain and anger I felt I can’t walk away now, not until I know more ( Read more... )

So tomorrow I will awake to a new day, the sun will rise and I will try again. Today was a failed attempt to move beyond this heartache but tomorrow I vow to try again. I wonder if it aches so much because I can’t find the right words to represent this feeling. I am a writer, its how I heal. I can paint you a picture with my words, I’ll make ( Read more... )

I don't want you to give it all up ( Read more... )

Don't try to put love on a timeline, don't be so ignorant as to say quantity of time has more to do with the power of love then the quality of time. I for one don't believe in love at first sight, but ask me if you can fall in love in a month, a week, even a day ... yes I think you can if the situation is right. I speak from a twisted experience ( Read more... )

Yeah so maybe I should have stayed scared because now I am drowning in my emotions. I screwed it up, it's ended before it really even begun. I guess it might be better now than later but somehow none of that seems to matter right now. Wow this sucks so bad, I am so angry with myself and ugh... I can't fix it. I think I just make it worse every ( Read more... )

So for the first time in two years there is a man in my life who has the power to make me cry. I don’t know exactly what I think that means but I do know that I hate it. I have to tell you that for the past two years I haven’t exactly loved the single life, I’ve dated some but never latched onto any one guy and I wasn’t sure why. I’d have fun ( Read more... )

Here I sit a loser on another Saturday night. I can’t figure out which is worse... being really lonely when you have no one or feeling like you have someone when you really don’t. I had gotten to the point where I hated being single, but let me tell you any day of being single and KNOWING I was alone was better then this puzzle I’ve got now. I ( Read more... )