I was walking in to campus this morning, in the rain.  It was a perfect rain-- a little chilly, but the kind where you can turn up your face and feel like the sky is kissing you.

I pulled my hood off and so that I could feel the rain drops on my face.

And I passed by a tree.  It's not a very old tree, nor is it particularly young.  But the leaves ( Read more... )

I went outside at 5:10am this morning.

And it was soooooo beautiful.

There is something about the night sky just before dawn... it's still dark, but the earth knows the morning is coming, and all of the world draws in a deep breath and holds...

and everything is still and peaceful and cool and calm

ethereal

I remember feeling beautiful in the breath ( Read more... )

 "I am here still waiting
 I still have my doubts
 I am damaged at best
 Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
 I'm barely breathing 
 With a broken heart
 That's still beating..."

--Broken by Lifehouse

Decided to get off my ass and go to yoga.

Okay, tonight at 6:45pm I can have 150 calories:

½ grapefruit-40cals
½ specialK bar-45cals
2 slices turkey-16cals 
1 peach- 45 cals
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       146  I think that looks pretty good and pretty exciting! :o)  But tomorrow:

8:15am: 1/2 grapefruit(40) + ½ tbsp sugar(8) + 2 tbsp yogurt(20)=70
1:00pm: 2 mini-carrots (14) + 2 turkey ( ( Read more... )

 This fast is sooooo worth it--I can't even believe the weight I have lost.  In the past 9 days I have lost 9 lbs!!  No wonder I used to be able to do this all the time-- it works and it's so rewarding to see the progress.  I just have to go another measley 11 hours-no problem! And I have my yummy flavor water to help today!  And I have a strong ( Read more... )

  So far, I’ve been successful with the fast-28 hrs of 48 complete!  (Though I did drink 16oz of crystal light raspberry green tea, which is 5 calories, and considering I walked to and from campus, I’m not going to count it.) AND GUESS WHAT!?!?!  I just now weighed myself and I weigh 162.4 pounds!!!!!!!  At the END of the day!  And I DID drink ( Read more... )

 I weighed myself this morning again- I mean, I do almost everyday lately, but I think I didn't believe that I really made the first mini-goal, but I did, and I am now under it!!  Eeeeeee!!!  I am doing it, it worked.  I have a pretty strict plan this week, but it seems like I DO need days of eating with lots of working out mixed in with days of ( Read more... )

Loving planning every bite (or non-bite, as the case may be), I CAN fix this.  Just watched the Devil Wears Prada-Anne Hathaway is gorgeous in it-good thinspo! :o) I will be able to look like her when I am skinny.  I will be lean and long and toned and lovely.  I can’t wait. There is no bite of food worth giving this up for.  I will stay in control ( Read more... )