Not a lot to say today.    So far, even after drinking lots of water and eating food, I am still at the goal weight I set for myself for this weekend.  But I can’t stop.  I MUST keep losing weight. I’m looking forward to fasting Monday and Tuesday.  I need to run a few errands today and pay bills (shit, I really need internet, I have GOT to get my ( Read more... )

Which, being the nerd that i am I am calling 'goal weight .25' after realizing that the first 3 goal weights/dates I set up were too far apart for me to keep myself on track... and I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!  I wanted to lose 5 pounds this week and I lost a little over!!!  Yay!  So encouraging!!!  I CAN DO THIS and if I feel (for the moment) THIS happy, I ( Read more... )

 I feel so fat and disgusting right now.  Yuck.  The one thing I have always had was a great, lean, thin stomach, and now even that is gone.  I HAVE to keep fighting for this, I have to have to have to have to.  It's so worth it in the end.

And this hot tea that I made, I don't know what fruit flavor it is, but it's really disgusting.  *yuck* going ( Read more... )

 Kim and Amanda and Paige all planned to go visit Jackie and her new baby and no one mentioned it to me at all.

This just fucking pisses me off.  Fine, I don't give a damn.  Who the hell needs friends anyway, right?  Especially girls who you thought you were really close to, and who really mattered to you, people you call your best friends.

I don ( Read more... )

 So, of course, since I was so distressed, I stayed up too late last night and I couldn't get my ass out of bed this morning to go to my 'Core' class (it's a weight lifting/ light cardio class, really great for toning all your body, when I can drag my ass there).  It was rainy and cold this morning, which didn't help either.  And, what is with this ( Read more... )

1475à(7/29 9:30pm)Fuck.  Excuse my language, but this is the only word I can think of to express how I feel about this.  I BLEW it!!  When I left work, I was at 155 calories for the day… but I got stuck at work, and was leaving pretty late, but I thought that if I biked home super fast, I could still get to the fairgrounds and it wouldn’t be too ( Read more... )

 Another motivator: Andy.  We used to be friends, but I guess I'm too fat now to be friends with him.  That's okay, I bet anything he'll want to hang out be friends again when I am skinny.  As a matter of fact, I'll be thinner than he has ever seen me before.  Just watch.  I'm sure I'll enjoy him actually trying to get and wanting my attention ( Read more... )

Down 4 lbs!

This morning I woke up and felt really concerned because I felt hungry.  But when I weighed myself, I was down 4 pounds from Saturday!!!  Yay! This made me feel strong!!!  Only eating 350 calories today?!  No problem, I can totally handle that!!!  And still going to Muay Thai, after helping wash/clip a horse at the fairgrounds, and ( Read more... )

 Tuesday, July 28th-- 300 800 cal day
80- sugar free hard candies

5- crystal light drink mix in water

50- red cabbage

130-english muffin

190- peanut butter

60-honey

170- wheat tortilla

400- pop tart (thank God, last one)

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1085-grrrrrrr

-250-60 min yoga

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835

Okay, so I am not pleased about this, not at all.  BUT, it’s actually not as bad as ( Read more... )

 More info:  I don't know that I believe these are really negative calorie foods, but these are the kind of foods I am going to surround myself with--the ones that I like anyway!

Negative Calorie VegetablesAsparagus
Beet Root
Broccoli
Cabbage 
Carrot
Cauliflower
CeleryChicory
Hot Chili 
Cucumber
Garden cress
Garlic
Green BeansLettuce
Onion
Radish
Spinach
Turnip
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