Oh boy. It's that time.
Remembering everything from the past that you try so hard to push in the back of your mind.
The boy who unknowingly let you go.
The friends who you thought would stick with you forever.
The gentle innocence of being young and naive.
The summers spent trekking back and forth from my house to Caseys.
As much as I love the friends I ( Read more... )

This is how it's going to be from now on. :(

My eyes glaze over.
My mind runs faster...faster.
The same conclusion over and over again.
I cannot fix it.

On a different note.
I am so pumped for DC on Friday.
100 dollars and I get four days in a city that makes me feel at home.
And not to mention I get to see my brother and his wife.
Oooooh I hope I get to see my sister in laws sister Noir!
She is ( Read more... )

As the semester continues on, so do the feelings I get.
I am burying myself in Brand New, The Spill Canvas, Bright Eyes, Atreyu, and various other bands.
I don't even feel like writing.
I wish the sun would come.
That would help me so much.
Sun always pulls me out of depression.

Edit- Apparently Wheel of Fortune lifts my spirits. Probably because I ( Read more... )

Slightly obsessed with Family Guy.
Christmas was good. It was probably the best Christmas i've had in a really long time.
I spent time with my family, and ate some reallllly good food.
I got awesome gifts, and gave people some awesome stuff.
I love seeing how happy people get when they open my gifts.
Tonight i'm hitting up the mall to get some clothes.
I ( Read more... )

So things have been pretty good.
Finals went okay I guess.
I got my Christmas shopping done finally.
I got to hang out with Joe for a little. Finally.
I know what i'm getting for Christmas thanks to my dad being really bad at being secretive.
Which sucks because I wanted to be surprised.
Kitty has been curling up with me in the morning. ^_^
Yeah. So ( Read more... )

When did life start becoming so meaningless?
I hate hate hate being busy.
I feel like i'm not myself.
I get depressed and I hate it.
I drank so much last night to just get some relief.
I can't wait till finals are over.
I need to stop this self destructive behavior.
It's not that i'm harming myself in any way.
But I know that if I continue this way of ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do and I don't have anyone to talk to...

Really good fucking weekend. I deff needed this.
Good times in NYC with Joe and Justin.
You guys are like my only normal friends. :)
The Spill Canvas was pure sex. Literally.
Cockroach the size of Justins ear. Lolz.
Got home at around 4 am.
Tonight was Fall Out Boy in Bridgeport with Megan and Erin.
Erin didn't have a ticket.
But.
The doorman gave her a ( Read more... )

I feel lost.
Lost in a sea of stress and routine.
I don't want to do this anymore.
It's not that i'm not ready to be an adult or have responsibility.
It's that whenever I try, it's just not good enough.
I'm not good enough.
I hold myself to a standard that i'm never going to achieve.
I want to stop pretending it's all okay.
And I want people to stop ( Read more... )