I realize on nights like this how few friends I really have. And it makes me sad. My plans for the weekend were suddenly changed by an unfortunate event. While I understand the necessity of canceling, it leaves me with a completely free weekend with no ideas. And no friends. Jodie is in Florida, Kirk Miles Kyle are in Portland, Krystan is in ( Read more... )

I feel like I need a new plan of attack. Also, I feel super guilty that I haven't been around probably as much as I should have. Let me explain the situation. I just adopted a cat. Her name is Farrah and she is a semi-feral cat that was at SARA's. I had chosen her because she really trusted me at the store, following me around, begging for ( Read more... )

Recently, I've been rather depressed. I'm not quite sure why. Work is going well. I've seen my friends recently. I love spending time with Evan. Yet, I almost feel like i'm back where I was four, five years ago. Depressed, jealous, self-conscious. What happened to my confidence? Why am I looking to other people to make me happy? Is this what being ( Read more... )

I'm in a rather strange mood. I'm not sure if i'll be able to express myself clearly. "I let my music take me where my heart wants to go." Made a strange contemplative playlist and am highly distracted by the words of others. It's not necessarily sadness, because I'm rather content. hormones? perhaps ( Read more... )

I am so stressed out ( Read more... )

My life is now falling apart. It's awesome. I was warned of such an event, but I chose to have faith. Where did it get me? Perhaps it was too hasty, responding to that ad. He had just informed of his desire to move out. Yet, as much as it would put me out financially, I believe I would really enjoy moving. There are so many positive sounding ( Read more... )

Oh, comme le français me manque. Je passe des jours en l'écoutant ou en le lisant. Je veux tellement y retourner. Ca me rend surprise parce qu'il fait qu'un seul an depuis que je suis rentrée. Mais chaque jour, je me sens de plus en plus eloignée du pays. Je n'avais pas pensé qu'elle était si proche de moi, si enterrée dans mon coeur. Lorsque je ( Read more... )

I'm torn. It sorta feels like nothing happened. Like I still need some proof. Maybe it's because I'm still exactly the same. So what do I do about everything else? Ignore it? Explain what happened? Do I want to burn every bridge ( Read more... )

So today was much better. I got a text from josh and hopefully things are okay. With any luck, we'll go out this weekend. I'm such a girl sometimes i can't even stand it ( Read more... )

well, things are not looking good. And I'm just left here asking "what the fuck?" I don't understand at all ( Read more... )