I see walls to hide secrets, divisions to cause chasms, and I see you trying to drive me out of your life.

I hate that but I love you.

You have taken, by force, control.

You have, by force, pushed your will on to me.

In your desperation for inner peace you have emmasculated your protector, and driven him from your home.

I give up.

I dreamt of varmints playing with a landmine.

Whatever the hell that means.

searing pain invisible fire
Boil the blood cook inside
See red fade to black
Wake the dead under moonlight

If you cant shutoff the hurt release some anger to dilute the rot. Sear the nerves. Focus the mind.

Then can solitude turn productive unril the shadow of death passes over.

Devils are smarter than men but God is better than both.

The waves ebb and flow. My head bobs up through the wake as i feel the sharks graze my toes. I see nothing but the moon's distant glow. A faint reflection of the sun. Im holding on this shard of a boat trying my best to stay afloat.

The one person I try to love better than anybody rlse in this whole world hates me. The self hatred is no consolation. I just wish i could fight this for her. I wish she would let me near her but I am treated as villain.

My heart breaks. Only the lord of glory can break through that wall. I miss the girl i asked to marry me.

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I want to scream from the rooftops
I want to go faster than sound
I want to sleep till my heart stops
and lose this stone before i drown

I need to bleed out this agony
before it kills me
I need an ear I need to see
before it kills the rest of me

I can't hear you below the waves
I can't breathe so I suffocate

But i do not fear. For i know where my help comes from. I'm a little boy staring up at a giant and have only a handful of smooth rocks and my bigger better Lord.

Inhale. Exhale. One breath at a time. One step at a time. One heartbeat at a time. This is how we push through.

Cut me to the bone
Burn me in my home
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust

Dig through the smolder
I used to hold
Watch the clean
become the rust