well finals are over..thank god..and now I am sick but I dont know what I am sick more of..having a cold or my dad. hmmmm. This weekend was ok.. kinda crazy,the family fought, then jim snuck out of the house which makes this the 2nd or 3rd time this week ive had to cover for him. Man crazy kids these days. Today I finally went outside!yay. I was ( Read more... )

I'm afraid of the future but I'm terrfied because I dont know my place in it. I dont know where I will be but I fear that too much will change except the sadness I feel at times. I wish I could see into the future..who wouldnt. I think I gave up along time ago on trying to create a good life , a good education for myself. I guess I just lost hope ( Read more... )

I know ive probably said this at least a thousand times but I really wish I could go to New Zealand :( maybe this summer?? anyone wanna come with me?


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Maybe it’s easier to kill the truth and live in the lie but either way hurt is inevitable.

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Getting myself admitted to a mental institution.

Get your resolution here

Happy New Years!!!


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Another quiet night ,well except for the crashing symbols that I hear once and a while and the vibrant rain that falls steadily on my roof top but I don't mind. I love the rain it always puts me in this tranquil mood , it beckons me to come out and dance in it.During these kind of storms I find myself cuddled up in my bed, eating large quantities ( Read more... )

  Woke up watched Kill Bill Vl 2.....got bored...then Jim agreed  to be the cover of the christmas card.  So In short  Merry Christmas.


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I love winter break ( Read more... )

nothing makes sense anymore. i have lived a good life , i have a good family, i have nice material things, i have security in the sense that i dont have to take on adult responsibilities at the age of 18,i dont drive, i dont have a job, i haven't been to a high school dance and strangely enough i don't regret it, i'm so insecure sometimes that i ( Read more... )