i only feel good about myself when i'm hungry.
this is nothing new. just resurfacing.

i dont want this existence.
but i can't stand having my stomach full.
and looking at myself in the mirror.

i am letting go. letting go of rationale. reasoning. reckoning ( Read more... )

Is she doing this tonight
Drinking tea instead of eating
Stalking the mirror, windows, shiny suckered surfaces for a reflection,
For some loose interpretation of her form
Waiting for a glitch that’s pleasing to the eye
Taking notes, tips, and tricks to not appear worn
I tried. she says, i really did try.
Instead, she’s back, keeping company with these ( Read more... )

fuck you.

fuck this.

fuck everything.

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After fainting 3 days in a row. Losing my best friend's interest in me. Forgetting my own father's birthday. and having a breakdown last night, breaking a mirror---- I made a decision today.

I want to be happy.

So I'm going to try. I'll let you know how it goes.
best of luck to all. xox

Damn all periods to hell. I finally got my little visitor after a couple of months of her bailing on me. I suppose this would be a good thing for my body, but a baaaad thing for all else. I've actually been craving food. I rarely get the urge to eat anything, even when my stomach is growling. and now not only am I finding my way to the kitchen, but ( Read more... )

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I think if I ever feel like getting married (I'm sure I will eventually), that the lucky winner will be required to possess only one quality:

be a vegan chef

ironically, it would make life so much easier.

½ cup fiber one cereal
½ cup skim milk
1 banana
1 cup green tea
5 strawberries
½ peach
½ apple