I'M BACK!!After months of therapy and recovery and some life changin around I'm back and ready for action.  August 13th is an Elite Model Search at our mall and at that point I want to be my thinnest, most toned, perfect best shape of my life me.  So I have about a month and a half to lose 10-15 pounds, get toned, and be a lose 4.  I'm also takin ( Read more... )

ok well so much for working out tonight..I'm still gonna do all the pilate stuff before bed but I didn't get any cardio in and I was forced to have taco salad and chips and stuff for dinner..ugh I'm such a fuck up. Well tomorrow I'm gonna take some pics and I have some of lacrosse and from the trip and the concert that I can put on webshots then ( Read more... )

ok so had like two bites of my lil sisters pop tart this morning and an orange for lunch. So far after school I'v prolly had about 300 cals of cereal/popcorn. ugh..and now I'm making a chicken/cheese wrap which is prolly 200. Therefore I'd say about 600 for the day and I'm not going to have anymore. It's almost 4 and my sister has a game ( Read more... )

ok so the last two days in a nutshell ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm just here..I'm not serving any purpose..I'm not happy at the moment and I just feel blah and depressed and like nothing. And I'm sad because I havn't made any progress and I havn't been posting and updating..just kinda all sucks. On my period havn't taken my medicine in weeks and my mom cancelled a lot of my pysch appt cause she ( Read more... )

wow..havn't updated in a loooong time! Unfortunatly havn't weighed myself in like two weeks..havn't binged in forever and I'v had lacrosse and everything going on but I'v still been eating more than I want to. I don't think I'm gained any but besides lacrosse I havn't been doing much working out like my pilates moves..HAVE TO pick those up again ( Read more... )

FINALLY got my green tea pills!!Christina..from outpatient..called and asked if I wanted to come hang out so we went to dinner and ice cream :/ but she knows about the whole ed thing so she made sure I was okay with it. We ended up gettin shitty service at ruby tuesdays and we got our meals free :D and she payed for my ice cream sooo I asked if we ( Read more... )

ok short but sweet..doing well so far stayed up all night turning my journal into a thinspiring thing for the trip. Going out today..sorry for the crappy journal*i was adding a background and now it won't work :/* made lots of collages and I have em saved to webshots so if you want the link e-mail me or I can send you anything that I have saved on ( Read more... )

ok so havn't really updated all week..I get on and read my friends page but then get off.  I'm now prolly at 126..ugh..I'm like at this odd point.  Ok so from this moment on until sunday night I am not eating unless absolutly necessary.  I want to kick off the week and then once monday comes and we leave for spring break I won't have a pantry of ( Read more... )

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