really?

ive become content with this life that i lead where i drink too much and dont believe in much of anything

the past few evenings have been swirled with misadventures, ones to be proud of, and ashamed of as well. should i really not care this much about being out and away from my family? but for once i feel like me again. i dont want to use words like held back or trapped, because they dont properly cover one im looking for. these night time moments are ( Read more... )

A cool breeze blew across the lake, as she awoke in the hammock,disoriented and wondering how much time had past. The sun was low over the trees as she sat up and got her bearings, then smiled as she rememebered the past nights endeavors ( Read more... )

as time goes by i trust myself to do the right things.but latley im second guessing everything i've come to be. i've let this new me overtake the hip hop happity verison. im thinking about going back to my roots. my crazy perky chipper big white fluffy ball of goodness ( Read more... )

so things have been interesting latley, tho i've gone through my thoughts and found some to be off the wall. some tiresome, but never dull. i found myself wondering what would be said about me if one was to write my eulogy. and i was thusfar dissatisfied with my accomplishmenets. ive thought about sometime finding the time to go back to school and ( Read more... )

what a strange day.....

so today is day one of operation HM

im done with the frumpies, i am making at least an effort. going go walking with the boys every morning. im tired of just sittin around. hittin the gym every evening. taking care of my appearence, just staying on top of things. What an eye opener one day makes. no more feeling like crappola.

wish me luck

so this coming sunday the boys will be 6 months old!!
i cant believe its been that long. they are too effin cute latley. lack of sleeping abilities or not.

today my patience have been tested. big time. i dont know wahts it is. but they just wouldnt not stop whining and crying all day long! i cant handle them at all today. it makes me want to scream and yell and i feel like such a bad mom that i cant keep calm.

ack. this is exhausting.