Ughhhhh. I haven't been this down in 4 years or so. I think I even had some sort of panic attack the other day.

Not good.
I have a great life... I shouldn't be so sad.

50 days to go... until I'm free forever from MHS.
Camping this weekend should be fun.

I sleep just to avoid thinking it, but I dream it.

You don't know what you are doing to me.
I truly truly think I hate you.

I give up, really. I gave you my all, and I got nothing back.
Drugs and drinking are better than me any day.
I hope you get an std.

I really can't get this image out of my head.
When I think about it, I want to physically get sick.
You disgust me. You are such a hypocrite.
I hate you for this, truly.

Fuck you.
Fuck sex.
You make me sick.

How sad.
You left,
I should have seen it coming.

I don't even know how to feel or act.
Please life, throw me an adventure. Show me I'll be ok.

I'm sad.
sad sad sad sad sad.
:(

I honestly have no idea what I want, with anything. EVER. I should get someone to make all of my decisions for me. Any takers?

Everyday I sit here waiting ( Read more... )

I fucking need to leave. Seriously.

I can't live with or without you ( Read more... )