Ten bands you've been listening to a lot lately ( Read more... )

this weekend was great- best in a looong time. all u who made it so great (and you know who you are)-- thanks. im not going to really post until i can figure out how to say everything i want to say.

when did everything become so normal? and when did normal become a problem for me? why am i not satisfied with my set life with my set friends and my set plans for the weekend? is it wrong of me to find this all extremely boring? don't think for a second that i don't love you all to death- because i do more than i can say- i just can't stop feeling ( Read more... )

the OC made me cry today. and im sick. and the doctor scared me today. make me feel better.

in the library-- i haven't updated in awhile, and i do have a lot to say, but its all very mixed up and varied, and would come out completely incoherent if i tried to organize my thoughts right now. a lot has happened since my last post, but not much that is very significant i think. well, at least not significant to anyone but myself. every little ( Read more... )

tonight was the play. and it was jaw-droppingly good in my opinion, or at least relative to everyone's expectations. if you haven't seen it yet-- get ur asses to school and come cheere for me and my superb secretarial skills. despite everything i said, and the whole emotional ordeal attached to this play, i really ended up having an amazing time. ( Read more... )

what is it about guys that makes me crave their friendship? why do i feel so adrift when i dont have someone of the opposite sex to talk to? and its not even a sexual thing, its all mental. why do i need guys so much?

and why don't i have them?

i had marvel with kat today. that was good. the rest of it wasn't so much. im just completelly overwhelmed, want this damn play to be over and done with already. im tired down to my bones. everything hurts.

especially my heart.

im back. vegas was good, not great-- i'll tell you all about it sooner or later but right now im on the verge of a major anxiety attack. too much work to do. i shouldn't have gone away. thinking back i really wish i had stayed home.

i've been thinking a lot lately. mostly about the type of person im becoming, the type of people my friends are becoming. i worry about it a lot, because i know that doing what we're all trying to do now is hard, and that more often than not i can't talk to anybody about it all. and i wonder what everyone else's struggles with themselves are like, ( Read more... )