Chapter VI: December 1, 2021

Most friends, especially "best friends," would not let a small detail derail the experience of staying in a penthouse suite over a standard room - but as I have been conditioned to live in fear of leading her on, I went out of my way to reserve a standard room with two beds to uphold my sincere disinterest in her.

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29 June 2023

RINSE & REPEAT.

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Of course, we met again.
In the exact same manner, as though neither of us have learned
- or as though both of us have yearned.

The last time we spoke was early November. I told her I did not want anything that she could not afford me, and she never responded. She claims she sent me a text months later in February to tell me she was infatuated with ( Read more... )

Before my career, Valerie and I's relationship was what I was most proud of. We had nothing together, and then everything together. We built ourselves from nothing, to become lovers and leaders.

I have met but two girls in the two years since our departure, both exactly how I would want to meet my next girlfriend - at a concert, which is my life. ( Read more... )

Wasted.
Her, and every chance she had.

I no longer await
any fate with Kait.

This chapter ends here:
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Her genius for subtlety has left me
slipping through the fingers of her ambiguity.

She begs me to read through her lines,
but instead I see through her.

I am sure that I am not the only one
that received a text from her last week;
it was a drive-by text,
never to be followed up upon.

How could you send a text of that caliber,
ensued by radio silence?
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"You can choke on every fucking word you've ever said."

So It's been a week -

Everyone was right,
and I was wrong.

Am I blinded by a vulnerable state?
Can kindred spirits really be so cold?

And if so,
what does that say about oneself?

Have I met her
to face myself?

PAUSE.

Say something,
anything.

I want to have the conversation
that came so easily before
and never left.

I want to feel the weight
of more than words
against me;

of unsuspecting hearts
beating seamlessly.

I didn't make it to Toronto, and I never saw her again.  
My ridiculous lifestyle that she was so attracted to came to a screeching halt.

The six months prior to this had been a dream; one that had only been missing one thing, which Kait seemed to complete. I was flown to New York for work and fell completely in love, visiting four times. I then ( Read more... )