everytime i write in here i feel like i'm writing some sort of insignificant article for a porno mag. i think i still lack the sort of detail that one of those guys go into though. i think i match up in other aspects though. i don't have much to go buy but i can surmise that a writer doesn't have too much of a love life. not like an actor or ( Read more... )

a change of attitude changes a person. i've seen it several times. i'm sure i've said before that change is never for the better. this is how the most disgusting people are made, the people i don't talk to. this is redundant ( Read more... )

there are tiny blonde hairs on my upper arm. i like the way they have a sort of glint when the t.v.'s light hits it. i'd like to be able to draw something like that. it's trivial and captivating at the same time. unfortunately i lack the talent to draw something the way i'd like to. the fault of an unsteady hand. my stomach has the very same kind ( Read more... )

i'm so tired of waiting. apparently everything that ever happens is a prelude to something else. or so i'm told...by him. it seems to be the waiting period i have a problem with. i've got a headache right now. i'm not sure if it's from the constant reading or the lucidity it provides to overwork myself. i've got about twenty-five pages or so left. ( Read more... )

i'm told i should update. i guess i should start off by saying that today is my grandma's birthday...but more importantly...it's my dog's birthday. she's so cute. like a little fat walrus or something. except probably not as delicious. no school til twelve thirty. that's pretty cool. i've nothing really to do during that time period though. except ( Read more... )

so i've nothing much to write. this scar on the back of my hand is healing. don't ever get burned by a cigarette. it takes forever to heal and scabs like to cling to things. today george came over. we messed around with his keyboard. we made a split sound with a bird sound and a gunshot then put a beat to it. i learned how to play la bamba. self- ( Read more... )

yep. haven't updated in a while. probably because i'd like to think my life was worth more than an article in a penthouse magazine. it's not though. but if i always tried to live my reality i'd be the way i feel. mr. park asked why i haven't applied to any colleges yet. i told him i lack any incentive whatsoever. that's not a lie. it's a half-truth ( Read more... )

been a while.....lemme see. friday is a good place to start. i got a katatonia cd. i like it. it's pretty mellow stuff. then on my way home...who might i see. her. that's right. her. then bam...my heart felt like it exploded in my chest. then the nausea set in. so what conclusion can we come to? never.....ever.....fall in love....with anybody. ( Read more... )

i just woke up. i shouldn't have went to sleep. i had nothing else to do though. i think it was the chicken.....it knocked me the fuck out. but it was good....with the corn....and the biscuits. that should be a drink. corn,chicken,and biscuit smoothie. i might give it a shot....that seems to be what it takes to make me sleep anyways. i had a weird ( Read more... )

U2 was formed in 1978 in Dublin, Ireland. i wonder what the other irish people think about their kin. probably ashamed like i feel about rammstein. du....du hast ( Read more... )