okay so last year i liked this boy named R
i didnt want to tell him but he found out anyways thx to my friend.
then after a while he thought i was a physco. lol
like i ended up liking him so much it was crazy.
like everytime he would come around i would feel so nervous and i lost a lot of myself that year
i was dealing with depression and anorexia (NO ( Read more... )

i broke my diet
the wierd part was that i wasnt hungry
but im having more control though
god i wish i could stick to dietss
theyre just s hard
ill just stick to 200-300 cals each day

what i had today

-dry toast (43 cals)
-orange (ill say about 70)
-apple (80 cals)

=193

wow that was great! i gotta eat twice as much tomorw
i really think i could get through the 2468 =)

i feel horrible
i went out for dinner with my family
i had fried mushrooms and pizza
my stomach is humumgous
im so fasting on monday
omg im listening to my immortal right now and it wmakes me think so much about the past two years i had with anorexia

ewww i broke my fast today ( Read more... )

so far i havent eaten anything
my mom thinks i had dinner so im all set for the day
i hope i can keep this up tommorow
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I was up last night and I could get any sleep so i decided to write in my litle journal
and i came up with a bunch of quote so here they are :

Life's short,
Don't spend it eating

~Shivani

You only get what you deserve

~Shivani
(that one's kind of cheezy. lol)

You can cheat on your boyfriend
You can cheat on a test
But when you cheat on you diet
You will ( Read more... )

this week my arms legs and stomach were FLABIER than everrrr!
but then i woke up this morning and i lost a whole inch off of my waist =)
i still felt like my same fat self when i woke up until i looked in the mirror
i weighed my myself and i weighed the same 91 pounds (gross!)
but like that was so wierd
any ways i read somewhere that if u eat 5 small ( Read more... )

this backrounds looks soo much better
i lovee it!  its so me
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im such a post whoree
haha

You're feeling: fat
To your left: the printer
On your mind: my fattiness
Last meal included: cheese bread..eww
You sometimes find it hard to be: in control
The weather: okay
Something you have a collection of: pink stuff! lol
A smell that cheers you up: anything with the scent of strawberrys
A smell that can ruin your mood: crap lol
How many days since you ( Read more... )