welp, thats it. its over. my whole life is over. peace

im pretty happy. jimmys been spoiling me and the kids. i finally got a car now, it feels so much better to have a vehicle again. jimmy took me to busch gardens in virginia, it was really fun. he bought me almost a whole new wardrobe from the ecko store. sweet. he jus let me get a new piercing today, so i finally got my septum re-done. the only ( Read more... )

a pill to make you numb
a pill to make you dumb
a pill to make you anybody else
cause all the drugs in this world
wont save her from herself

always making an effort to stay sane....
the hardest thing ive been doin my entire life..

inside my mind it never goes away ( Read more... )

i just have so many feelings mashed up inside me that i want to
express but i dont want to at the same time
but if i dont get it out im gonna implode
and im tired of imploding...
who put this crazy brain in my head?

what do you call venting when you dont wanna talk about it?
how does this work again?
i forget
i think im broken
and here comes the self-hating withdraw...
=(

are not going well.
im surprised i havent had a mental breakdown yet.
i think im holding up pretty good for going stir crazy.
once we have a car, that will make this 20x easier on me
im still hanging in there.... by a thread

im not 100% on this,
but i think i have internally split personalities...hmm.

a few facts about recent life:
*love life is amazing<3 (finally ( Read more... )