it's all feeling gray again.

maybe I'll lay in the sun tomorrow and I'll feel normal again.

I've been cleaning for hours but I can't seem to snap myself out of this.

I can't get out of my skin.

Heavy-lidded ( Read more... )

oh the people that are supposed to be my friends, how good you've been to me ( Read more... )

I'm feeling less than wonderful, so I think a list is in order, to remind me of all the things there are to be happy about ( Read more... )

yesterday scared me. it scared you I know. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. no more accidental secrets, I promise. it's just hard, I don't know, it's not that I don't trust you, I do, you're probably one of the very few people that I do trust, it's just that it's so unbelievably hard for me to be completely honest with anyone anymore. and I wasn't in any ( Read more... )

I have returned to my abandoned philosophy that things just aren't worth worrying about. or stresssssing over. A lot of things suck, a lot, but it doesn't even matter. It's beautiful outside and when I am outside of my house I am unbelievably happy. So I think I'll get out of here, just go anywhere, until Max is feeling a little better and then I ( Read more... )

I have to move out. Not as in I've been kicked out, as in I HAVE TO FOR MY SANITY. I don't hate my family, I love them love them love them to pieces, but I'm always fighting with at least one member of my family and it's just killing me. I feel like my life and their lives would be vastly improved if I moved out. And my relationship with them would ( Read more... )

I severely dislike tuesdays, I always have. I can't pinpoint the underlying causation of said hatred towards this seemingly innocent day of the week, but it seems so bleak. Tuesday. I need a reason to love tuesdays, to forgive them. It will be difficult, I am positive of this, because I harbor years of resentment towards them, but forgiveness is ( Read more... )

this morning was fine, I was sleepy and spacey and melancholy. but it was fine ( Read more... )

let's run away ( Read more... )