today was perfect.

the sun was beating down with the perfect intensity and we laid beneath the tree and we were warm and calm and happy.

it was perfect.

I am happy.

and audrey kawasaki is amazing, google her, nowwww.

or here is a link, go to it.

http://www.audrey-kawasaki.com/2007/

ohh god. I want to be her.

I am devastated at the grim news of possible ( Read more... )

the weekend was not so good. not as terrible as I wanted to think, but just more bad than good I guess, I don't know. my ear is in mourning and my throat too ( Read more... )

I think so.
I know so.
I'm wrong.
I'm always wrong.
Maybe I'm right.
Am I right?
Left.
Right.
Blue light.

congratulations to me, I actually worked on my english speech and it actually doesn't suck. I'm like 4/5 of the way done so I figure I earned a break. shit I rule sometimes. most times. ha ( Read more... )

me + marie = yeah yeah yeahs cover band. fucking sweet. we're amazing and efficient and we bake sweet cookie bars.

and ohh god velvet goldmine was perfect today.

and things were snugglewonderful.

and my hair is a different color now, it's growing on me, I think I like it.

and marie, we forgot to do one very important thing that was on our agenda for ( Read more... )

in the midst of a breakdown.

I can't breathe. I cannot breathe.

run run run.

I want to be a good woman
and I want for you to be a good man
this is why I will be leavin
and this is why I can't see you no more
I will miss your heart so tender
and I will love this love forever.
I don't want to be a bad woman
I can't stand to see you be a bad man
I will miss your heart so tender
and I will love this love forever
this is why I am leavin
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my range of emotions lately has been extensive. things are great. wonderful. super. with max and everything, it's just great. it'll take some getting used to I'm sure, mostly just because I'm not used to being happy in relationships, it's never happened before and so now that it is...it's a little unnerving. in a good way. I'm happy, really.

but ( Read more... )

give me your bones
show me your bones
I want them
I want them for my own.
I want you to go
just leave me alone
but leave me your bones.

It's amazing how something small can make me feel sooo much better. Really. Ugh. But it's annoyingly temporary. I just think that I don't know anymore. I look for reasons to reach out. I can't tell you the truth, I just can't. Is it ridiculous that something could be so irreparable? A crossroads now. It's better than bad but no good. Running always ( Read more... )