sleep is a far away land, I haven't the time. I apologize to you now, my poor exhausted self, for assaulting you with caffiene and panic attacks, finals will be over soon and then you can go back to your occaisional panic episode ( Read more... )

I found something today while I was cleaning my room that I wrote awhile ago, it's happy, but makes me sort of sad ( Read more... )

is this what you wanted?

well congratufuckinglations.

you win.

I give up.

and by the way, you're right, I've had a rough fucking year, and this is just exactly what I needed.

Thanks ever so much.

firstly, I saw the inland empire again. I know you don't understand, I'm glad. miiine ( Read more... )

I have just returned from witnessing something beautiful.

Inland Empire. As in David Lynch's new movie. It's beautiful. It's intricate and non-linear and visually disturbing on so many levels. It was made for me.

I want to marry him. Or be him. Or both.

Perfection.

I must go lie in bed, do calculus and watch Blue Velvet now. Or Mulholland Drive. Or ( Read more... )

The snow was so beautiful today, It fell slowly, it was patient and calm and consuming. It smothered the ground.

Sometimes I feel it in my bones. Sometimes I know, sometimes I don't.

I missed my poor little dell baby today, I wanted to drown out everything with music, then remembered that it met it's tragic end when I fell in that ditch.

I made a ( Read more... )

I have had the same headache since yesterday afternoon. It's mildly concerning. It feels as if someone is stomping on the back of my head repeatedly while wearing stillettos. What a bitch. I hope it's gone by tomorrow, school is hard enough to get through without a migraine to top it off.

Sleep now.

Always. Remain composed. It's not hard if you devote every ounce of energy. Because if all you think about is how you shouldn't think about some things, you haven't any life left in you to worry about them ( Read more... )

time isn't real.

I can just feel it.

a game, really.

there is no constant.

I swallowed a handful of rusty nails, then regurgitated them, only to swallow them again.