ive put a wall around myself, hoping that someone would try to knock it down. youre waiting patiently on the other side while i cautiously take it down by myself.

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sometimes i think i was born backwards... i hear words go past me backwards. the people i should love, i hate, and the people i hate...

its not supposed to feel like im settling because i missed out on something better.

i have this problem where after a certain point i need to test people, like everything theyve already offered wasnt enough. dont take it personally.

normally, novembers suck.
hopefully, this one will be better.
i wish i wasnt so indecisive.
i also wish i could get some guts and karaoke.

i dont know what happened, but it feels as though this huge ball of resentment ive had for a lot of things has been shrinking for sometime now, and i havnt been paying attention and now, there is virtually nothing there. i mean, there really is life after burning and i wasnt sure if that was garbage or not until recently. i hope this is me growing ( Read more... )

i always get so optimistic this time of year, and that pattern isnt changing.
im so predictable with everything that i do, but thats not a bad thing, and your hands "taking chances" bring down the guard ive had up for so long.

so we've both noticed the potential. lets see where this goes.
its been awhile since ive had this sort of patience.

its weird how everything just slips into ordinary, but whatever.
i really need to manage my time better.
and when did you get so damn boring, for real?
the ides of you is so appealing, but i dont think its gonna cut it.